Hello, I'm a 17 year old female and I'm afraid that anxiety is taking over my life. I am afraid of dying of cancer. At night that is the only thing I possible think about I try to distract my mind by reading books and all sorts but nothing works. I have had this thought since I was in year 6 at 11 years old, due to one day swallowing a sweet whole and ever since I have felt something in my throat. When my anxiety is bad it seems to feel more prominent. I know that who ever reply will tell me to go and see a gp but I simply cannot. Last time I went to the doctors I had a tiny lump on my neck and they sent me for an ultrasound and I was having what I think was a panic attack but I'm unsure I just felt dizzy and shaky and my heart felt like it sank, with my breathing slowing down. This happens when I worry. I have also experience eye floaters for the past 3 years and I'm honestly thinking it's brain cancer because this boy that I know had blury vision and turns out he had a massive cyst on his brain so who knows if this could be brain cancer. Also I can seem to talk about cancer or watch shows on people who have cancer I also walk put the room when someone talks about cancer because I simply think that I have cancer. I hate when my parents talk about my future because I always think that I am going to die by then. I think that there is something wrong with me. I have always dreamed of being a Dentist in the future, I work hard in school and I really don't want my life to end. About a few years ago I went to the doctors for this feeling in my throat and they where suggesting to put a camera down my throat to ease my mind but I don't think I could because my mind is litrally telling me I have throat cancer, which is too late to treat so it doesn't matter if I have cancer, its too late. I have kept it in for too long.