Scared and confused

Hi all,

I'm 55 and have yet to go through menapause. I orginally was reffered for scans due to heavy bleeding during my period and the scan that found a small cyst and a fibroid uterus. When I was rescanned 8 weeks later (watchful waiting) they found my lining was 11mm and the cyst hemorragic, but could not see any fibroids. I was put on the two week pathway and was rescanned 3 weeks later. At the scan they said the cyst looked good and was improving but my lining was now 27.5mm. A biopsy was taken and I received a call yesterday (after 3 weeks) saying the biopsy was clear but they need to do investigative surgery under GA as they cannot account for why my lining is so thick.

I don't understand how my lining can be changing so rapidly (I was about to start my period at both times). I am sick with anxiety and depression and feel I can't live my life as I'm just constatnly waiting for bad news. This has been going on since December and I am constantly exhausted and scared.

Has any one else been in a similar situation? I don't know how I am meant to cope with this endless barage of appointments, then waiting, then appointments. I thought this biopsy would give me answers, but now I'm stuck in the same situation wondering how long till the hammer drops.

My OCD and anxiety are massively out of control, and this constant uncertianty is doing nothing to improve it.

Any stories or advice from people in the same boat would eb greatly appriciated,

LFrasier

  • Hello LFrasier and a very big welcome to Cancer Chat, 

    What an anxious time it must be for you and I can imagine this is causing you a lot of anxiety. It's good news though that your biopsy came back clear but I can understand why you are feeling like you have not had any proper answers. Hopefully this investigative surgery will shed some light on what is going on. I know it's easier said than done but while you are waiting to find out more, try not to worry too much or expect the worst as there are so many things that could be causing these issues. 

    The best thing to do to avoid thinking too much about this is to keep busy and distracted if you can and avoid looking things up online. I can imagine it is hard for you to do this at the moment but it will help you feel a little less anxious. There are useful tip on this page to help you cope while waiting for important news. 

    I hope you will also hear from others here who have been through all this before and that they will be along soon to share their story with you. 

    Keeping everything crossed for you that everything turns out fine. 

    Best wishes, 

    Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator