Hello Grace9422, 

I can understand why you are feeling so anxious after being told that you had a 50/50 chance of lymphoma but try not to anticipate the worst if you can as there is still a 50% chance that it turns out to be something else altogether. And if it was to be lymphoma, there are treatments available so try not to think about the worst possible outcome. Unfortunately all you can do for now is wait for your results to come through which is often the hardest thing. 

The best thing to do to avoid thinking too much about this is to keep busy and distracted if you can and avoid looking things up online as this will only bring up the worst case scenario. I can imagine it is hard for you to do this at the moment but it will help you feel a little less anxious. There are helpful tips on this page to help you cope while waiting for important news. 

I hope you will also hear from others here who have been through all this before and that they will be along soon to share their story with you. 

Keeping everything crossed for you that everything turns out fine. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator