Hi There

Your post hit home to me .  I know exactly what you are going through , no words can really describe what you go through mentally when waiting for results .  Although my area of concern is oral I am in thie same limbo of not knowing what is ahead .  My mind always steers to worst case and I simply cant think of anything postitive to my scenario. 

I am tired , emotionally exhausted , distant and feel-so very alone even when i am surrounded by family .  They all try to tell me not to worry , I smile but inside those words make me angry . I have been prescribed some medication to try and calm me down it works but wears off and I am worried I will become dependent on the medication .. 

I hope all goes well with your results and feel free to chat or message  me if you want to off load .. you are not alone

Jo

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Hello. I Wish I had some words of wisdom - all I can say is I totally understand. Same situation  here - can't believe I missed such a huge lump and my mind is in overdrive imagining the worst every day. The waiting is really tough. Thinking of you and hoping the outcome on Friday is better than you fear. 

Hi Jo,

Thank you for replying and your understanding. I hope that you get a positive outcome. 

I can't decide if - even if the outcome isn't great - I'll feel better than I do now sitting in limbo. I haven't told my wider family yet, they've been through a lot over the past few years and I don't want to add to it until I know what the results are. I do worry about how much this is putting on my husband too, although he keeps telling me not to worry about that.

Exhausted is the right word. I have no appetite and I can't focus. I haven't been given anything to help with the anxiety (medication-wise) and I'm not sure how I can switch off the part of my brain which is obsessing over this. I know obsessing isn't helpful.

Thanks again, and do feel free to contact me if you'd like someone to speak to in return. Aimee x

Hi Maci9, thank you for responding. It's helpful to know that I'm not alone in this experience - although I'd never wish it on anyone.

I hope you get a good outcome too. Take care x

Hi Aimee

Yes , I am trying to picture myself in two scenarios after results (not so good or bad), good news seems to not want to play  . I just cannot be rational at all in my thinking.  

I wasnt automatically prescribed anything for anxiety  but unfortunately for me my stitches rejected less than 48hrs after my biopsy .  I called my ENT hospital dept but they said there was little could be done without general Anesthesic again so due to pain I went to my GP.  GP assured me it will heal but  it will be slow and by this time my anxiety was out of control so I asked for something to settle me ! The downfall is its addictive but I am stronger than that , I hope .  Do keep it in mind ,  I have read many ask for help in these stressful scenarios and thats when I decided to take their advice  and ask for help .   

My anxiety and raw fear kicked in on 14th Feb when my doctor told me ahe was reffering me under 2ww , so this path already feels way too long .. ( what makes it worse is my phobia of hospitals lol) 

Thanks AImee , its does help to talk openly , ️

Jo

Would definitely agree that taking something helps to cope with waiting. It's just an awful place to be. Every day feels like a week but it's easier with something to take the edge off x

Indeed they help ! I first see it as my weakness and questioned myself on why I was not being stronger and tbh thought I was stronger than this .. I beat myself up daily thinking I am sure no-one is acting like me and feeling almost like I was being selfish but being here and talking to others showed me that my weakness was a normal human response  .. 

Virtual group hugs are lifelines too ️

Jo

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