Hi all

Im trying very hard to keep things in perspective but trauma related to medical treatments when I had my children has left me with health anxiety and I do struggle with all things medical.

im on continuous HRT and have been for over a year. I'm 53 and not sure when my last period was as I've been in HRT of one sort or another since 2015.  I missed a couple of tablets at Christmas and throughout January I had some daily spotting and occasional cramping. No flow, no need for sanitary protection, just a daily dark smear. It eventually stopped but I thought should get it checked and rang Dr. I had a telephone appointment and was placed on 2WW cancer pathway which really frightened me but understood it's to rule the worst out. I went for the appointment at the local hospital yesterday after three weeks and saw the gynae. I thought I'd be having an internal scan but the sonographer hadn't turned up so he did a biopsy instead and said I'd have to come back for the scan, and maybe a hysteroscooy. I found the biopsy doable but painful and I wasn't emotionally prepared if that makes sense but they were both extremely kind.

im just frightened. So very frightened. I haven't slept well for weeks and have intrusive thoughts and panic. I have a challenging job and am usually so mature and professional but I'm ashamed how badly I'm handling this fear and panic. My husband tries but wasn't with me when I was traumatised in childbirth and really doesnt understand the black fear. He says we should deal in facts and that stats etc are in my favour. He understand all about stats and risks - it's lost on me. Any calming advice would be gratefully received. Thanks for reading