Hi dear Nike4. 

I am so sorry to hear your story, and I do know 100% it is hard case you deal with. 

Let me tell you something, I was going crazy when I had my results and had to wait for my colposcopy. I was crying days and nights , Minska knows how bad I was if you look around my posts a few months back. 

Originally I had HPV positive and high grade moderate, did colposcopy and the lady told me she did not see cancer but I still was concerned until biospy results arrived. I was told I might need the treatment and to be prepared.  When the results from biospy arrived they send me a letter for a check up after 6 months and told me that it is not high grade but low grade CIN1 I believe it is. 

I am going for another check up in a months time. 

I would suggest don't be scared , you are been watched now and if in bad case scenario in years time we will get something like 'C' but hopefully not, it will be prevented as that's why we are having those check up every 6 months if you don't have treatment straight away. 

My sister also got it. Any many other femaly relatives and friends had it and don't have it anymore. 

It's scary and I couldn't believe that I have it but I had to admit it and stay strong. 

Right now, I don't think anymore about it. I have check up every 6 months and I am sure they will look after us. 

If you have not gone for this check up than you should worry you might get 'C' but since you are already in the progmar with them, they will look after you. 

I know from other people that sometimes from CIN1 you can go up to CIN2 depends how your body fight the infection but it is all preventable and it's a little % that you can get 'C' at all. 

I did freak out alot and was in A&E like 3 times and visited GP like 15 times in a month, I had severe anxiety, I was calling off sick from work. But now I am good, I know we are strong and just make sure you follow up with your appointments and all will be good. 

Lovely lady, please don't stress for no reason, I wasted 3 months of my life stressing and crying. And now I am super happy I am in their system and eventually HPV will go, but it will not get worst as NHS looks after us. 

I was also so upset I never checked before and did not know about this desease and did not prevent it. There is 100 of us who is the same position. 

Ladies here have helped me to go through difficult time, especially Minska. 

Nike4 , I wish you all the best. I am here for you anytime. 

Talk to me, I know it's very difficult to speak with your friends and relatives, I found it difficult too. But, we are here for you, because we know how you feel. 

Xxx

I am touched by your response. It is relieving to know that i am not alone with this feelings. I went to cervical screeening just because it was offered and i was shocked that i had all these in a month or so. I never thought i would experience such a thing! And definitely i was poorly informed about it. Now i know a lot better. The cancer possibilities are scary and it is upsetting that there is no solution for hpv. Even though it is very common. I am trying to spread awareness to women around me. Encourage them to do screening and vaccination. It is not healthy that nobody really talks about it. 

Thank you for your support. I will certainly attend all my examinations and be careful for my health!

I hope you get rid of this forever.

xxx