Hi Sidoreia

Unfortunately nobody will be able to tell you much more right now. You need to wait for the colposcopy where your cervix can be closely examined. Abnormal cells are usually just that-abnormal cells- which are not cancer but you need to have the colposcopy to be sure. If you have abnormal cells, these can be removed in a simple procedure.

I hope it goes well for you. 

I had my first abnormal smear last year at 40

High risk HPV and borderline cells

Just had my 12 month check up and still got HPV and now low grade cells.

I'm so disappointed it's got worse. I've got to have another colposcopy done.

The fact this is probably going to be my forever is just too much to bare. I have a severe cancer phobia so this just makes me unwell.

It's got worse over a year so I dread to think whsts coming. I just feel so low and scared

Sorry I didnt see your last paragraph. 

I wish I could be more like you x

You are not on a climb to get cancer. That’s the point of the screening programme. 

Your cells may have been low grade last time-the smear can only take a sweep of the cervix, so you may have had these all long. You’ll never know. 

I went from zero to cancer immediately and missed out the abnormal cell stage because I missed smears. You are being closely monitored and are honestly so lucky you won’t end up in my position. 

Thanks for replying to me. I have my colposcopy next Wednesday 9th so hopefully I'll know more then. Jusy the waiting is so awful.

You sound very brave and inspiring. I only wish I could be more like you 

I’m not sure I am brave but I didn’t have a lot of choice. Just had to get on with it and get the treatment done. I was really unlucky in that my cancer came back after all my treatment, so I hope you can understand why I feel that a result like yours is actually really ok. If you need treatment, the cells will be removed.

I’m sure that must be a scary thought, but it’s still not cancer. Having this has completely changed my life in ways you can’t even imagine,  but it won’t change yours. It’s something that can be easily treated, if it even needs treatment. Your colposcopy will give you more information, and should let you move on from this. x

Thank you. And yes of course I can understand how it looks like I'm over reacting when some are in a much worse situation than me.

In sorry you had an awful time, I really am.

X

I’m a pretty strong and positive person, which has served me well over the last 3 years. I don’t feel sorry for myself, it’s just the cards I was dealt.

But I do believe that thinking positively has a really good mental effect. The time to worry about cancer is when you’re diagnosed with cancer. Please don’t spend your life obsessing or worrying about having something which isn’t cancer and which can be easily treated if needs be. That’s all I’m trying to say. x

I really wish it was that easy. I've suffered with it for years and have tried all sorts of treatment to no avail.

I totally understand what you are trying to say and only wish I could calm down and think rationally.

It's really tough when you struggle with health anxiety and something like this happens

I was bad enough last year with borderline changes and have dreaded this re test all year. And now its come back worse than last year.

I appreciate your help and kind words 

I’m very sad to hear that, as it must have a very bad effect on your life. I’ve suffered badly from anxiety in the past, so can understand that, and how bad it is, but not specifically health anxiety. 

I’m not sure what to suggest to you if no kind of treatment has worked for you before, but I really feel for you if you are now to be trapped in a cycle of fear and worry which isn’t necessary. It’s such a shame. x

I am and it's so awful. This is why I am unable to cope with times such as these

My brain goes to 10000 from 0. I just want this colposcopy done and over with now xx

Hopefully the colposcopy will confirm the low grade changes for you you. I do wish you well and hope it goes ok. x

Hopefully the colposcopy will confirm the low grade changes for you you. I do wish you well and hope it goes ok. x