Hi all I am still in no mans land .I am still not diagnosed due to problems getting a biopsy from me . I have posted on other threads about this . My mental health is at rock bottom I will admit which isn't easy for me to admit . I went to the doctors yesterday and was given a phone number to ring , it was closed when I got home yesterday so I am going to ring today , but im not holding out much hope as with the past 2 years I should imagine theres a long waiting list.

Due to the nature of tests I have been having it has brought back demons from my past which I had tried to keep locked away in a little box at the back of my brain as that was the only way I could ever deal with it . If I do get diagnosed with cancer will there be help available or are you just left to get on with it? .

I know a lot of folk on here will be feeling the same and im not looking for pity , im just trying to get my head in a better place . im not sleeping , im having nightmares, I literally am stressed to the hilt .I can feel my body buzzing if that makes sense? I literally don't know what to do .