Feel alone and don't know what to expect.

Hi all, 

I've managed to land on here tonight after many failed attempts to calm my mind and go to sleep. 

Today after several months trying to get a gp appointment regarding a rash on my left boob and pain and most recently a lump ( my pharmacist has treated the rash with hydrocortisone cream, clotrimizole cream and a flucanazole tablet for the last few months with now improvement) I successfully seen my GP. 

The GP was lovely and agreed that the rash did resemble that of a fungal infection however the pain sounded like mastitis (I've never breast fed nor do I have children but learned it is possible to have this still). She found a second smaller lump alongside the one I had found and although I don't have a full nipple inversion it is split she has was initially going to try me with another cream but has decided it best to referr me to a clinic. 

I've no idea what to think, expect or how to not keep checking myself to see if I've missed more. I have no idea how to calm myself for 2 weeks or how long you generally wait after the appointment to know more. 

I feel a bit like a deer in headlights just now. 

  • Hi 

    well I no nothing about your condition but what I do know is today I went to the hospital To see ent and I think I may have cancer I don’t know. I’m male 44 years old and totally scared like hell. All I would suggest is try not to over think things like I have and still am don’t google anything witch I have. Just try to stay positive and keep your spirits up as I’m also trying to. I don’t expect a response back but I will be praying tonight as I’m laying next to my 7 year old son and you will be in that my prayers good luck mate deano 

  • Hi Deano, 

    I'll be sure to have you in mines tonight too. I hope you find out soon and have some more clarity to your situation. Although in my mind getting results could be just as scary as the wait to get them ( still working on that positive mindset - hopefully I'll get better at it real soon). I hope more than anything we are both fine   keep me posted. 

  • I definitely will. I no my spelling is totally crap but my god it’s a lonely place here tonight all I keep thinking is if anything happens to me what about my son. I’ve been though some real crazy dramas in my life time so far but this feeling is not nice. They said nothing to worry about 4 months ago now look where I am. And the thing is I’m not a weak man in these situations but tonight I’m feeling it big time. Look I’ve never posted nothing before ever I don’t even use Facebook Twitter etc now I’m posting lol it’s not even funny. I will keep you posted 100% and I truly hope you will be ok. Even though I don’t know you I hope and pray I’m the same will let you know. Try not to stress how I don’t know.