Going out of my mind with worry

Hi all this is my first post and really looking for some hope.....looking for some outcomes of microcalcifications clusters please. I went to my gp on 12th December with a lump about the size of a grape near my right nipple,wasnt sore or anything and wasnt really that worried as I've had two separate occasions of cysts in the past. Was referred to breast clinic,got my appointment for four weeks later and had ultrasound which they was happy it was a cyst but wanted to do a mammogram anyway. They then told me I had a small cluster of calcifications in my left breast and could be early breast cancer,this totally knocked me for six as I just thought it was to confirm the cyst!! They then give me an appointment for two weeks later for mammo assisted core biopsy,was petrified and walked away thinking *** I've got cancer. I had my biopsies last friday and was given another appointment for thos friday for my results,I tried getting some kind of indication from them as to how likely this is going to be cancer but they gave nothing away. I havnt told anyone as theres not much to tell at this point but I really am going out of my mind with worry so any help would be so appreciated xx

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  • Hi Rainbow, 

    Sorry to hear that you are going through this. Can't offer any particular advice at this point but only to say you are not alone. 

    I had my biopsy yesterday, having found calcifications so like you am awaiting the results. 

    The odds are on our side but I totallybunderstand the waiting and worry is just horrific. 

    Stay strong and really hoping for the best outcome for you on Friday x

  • Hi positive,

    Thanks for your reply,sorry to hear your going through the same worry. It's so hard just think straight and stay positive isnt it. Wanst sure if the odds were on our side because I stupidly looked on google and it's all very mixed information. Stupid of me to think otherwise just sheer desperation I think. Dud your drs give you any indication of the outcome? Xx

  • Hi!

    Yeah I did OK over the weekend keeping occupied and distracted. Today not quite so good. A lady at work asked how I was (she knew nothing was just being nice) and I burst into tears on her!! Oops! The spiral returns here too. 

    Really hope that your appointment goes ahead tomorrow. I can't possibly imagine that they will postpone it again. What time us your appointment?

    Roll on tomorrow!

    Sending positive thoughts x

  • Hi

    Sorry to hear that but sometimes that breakdown gives you more strength in a strange way. Funny how someone being nice to you can do that isnt it. I keep telling myself not to worry as I'm sure they couldn't change it again.....but I think anything is possible at the moment. Only blessing out of them changing the appointment is it's now a 10 am one. I feel ready for whatever is is I just need it regardless.

    Sending hugs back and hopefully we will be both back on track come this weekend xx

  • Thinking of you today. I have everything crossed for good news for you. 

    Take care and let me know how it goes. Xx

  • Hi 

    Sorry for the late reply but I think I was in a state of shock and relief and took myself to bed. I got good news and was given the all clear which is fantastic and I'm over the moon about and today can finally absorb the good news. Very strange as you think I would have been jumping for joy yesterday but it was all very strange and just completely felt numb. I'm sending you my luck that I had yesterday with me and preying you get the same outcome. Hope your ok and tomorrow isnt far away now xxxx

  • Yay!

    This is such amazing news and I am so happy for you. What a relief - glad it has now sunk in and you can get on with your life minus that hideous anxiety! Fantasitic :-)

    I will let you know how I get on tomorrow - fingers crossed!

    Enjoy this feeling xx

     

  • Thinking of you today,sending big hugs xxxx

    Let me know how you get on x

  • Hi!

    Not such great news for me unfortunately. I have DCIS confirmed from my biopsy.

    So now a whirlwind of appointments starting with bloods, MRI, blah blah blah and then surgery booked in for 10th March. Will be having a lumpectomy with bilateral reconstruction (so I'm not too wonky). Hopefully no further treatment will be required after that but will depend if they find anything unexpected following the op.

    Feeling OK. Had prepared myself for this so not too much of a shock!

    Thank you for your support these last couple of weeks I have really appreciated it x

  • Hi 

    I am so sorry to hear this,you sound so positive and strong keep going in that direction. I've been thinking about you all day and hoping, well you have you plan all set out for you and you will come out of it all a stronger person. Hopefully it all goes quick and your already booked in. I'm always here if you want to vent or moan. I'm absolutely gutted for you really am......its friday go and get that well deserved beer,sending you the biggest bloody hug and love xxxx

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  • Hi 

    I am so sorry to hear this,you sound so positive and strong keep going in that direction. I've been thinking about you all day and hoping, well you have you plan all set out for you and you will come out of it all a stronger person. Hopefully it all goes quick and your already booked in. I'm always here if you want to vent or moan. I'm absolutely gutted for you really am......its friday go and get that well deserved beer,sending you the biggest bloody hug and love xxxx

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  • Thank you!

    I think it's right that you do all the worrying when waiting and now I know what I am dealing with just want to get on with it and get it out!

    Thank you for thinking of me. I will carry on keeping you updated!

    Sent hubby out to get me some wine so will have a relaxing evening.

    Have a great weekend x