Going out of my mind with worry

Hi all this is my first post and really looking for some hope.....looking for some outcomes of microcalcifications clusters please. I went to my gp on 12th December with a lump about the size of a grape near my right nipple,wasnt sore or anything and wasnt really that worried as I've had two separate occasions of cysts in the past. Was referred to breast clinic,got my appointment for four weeks later and had ultrasound which they was happy it was a cyst but wanted to do a mammogram anyway. They then told me I had a small cluster of calcifications in my left breast and could be early breast cancer,this totally knocked me for six as I just thought it was to confirm the cyst!! They then give me an appointment for two weeks later for mammo assisted core biopsy,was petrified and walked away thinking *** I've got cancer. I had my biopsies last friday and was given another appointment for thos friday for my results,I tried getting some kind of indication from them as to how likely this is going to be cancer but they gave nothing away. I havnt told anyone as theres not much to tell at this point but I really am going out of my mind with worry so any help would be so appreciated xx

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  • Thank you for th hug!

    I know it's just one of those things so not too worried - just have to keep myself busy (not hard with work and a 4 year old!) and next Friday wiil be here soon enough!

    Glad to here you are feeling more positive today. It is really nice to have people to chat and vent to :-) xx

     

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  • Morning,

    Glad to know your not feeling to bad,the keeping busy bit is hard work isnt it but I'm pretty sure a 4 year old helps quite a lot ha ha.I've got one more day to go and full of anxiety,it really can not come quick enough. I can honestly say I've never felt fear like this.....I've even asked the big man upstairs to cross his fingers .....so not like me xx

  • Hey!

    Actually had a little wobble last night - tends to happen when no one is aorund and I'm left with my own thoughts!! I'm fine though!!

    Wishing you all the best for tomorrow, sending good luck, positive vibes, and why not ask the big man upstairs - can't do any harm!!

    When I first read your post about "the big man upstairs" - I imagined you having a tall/large neighbour in the apartment above you - then I twigged! Clearly this worry is affecting my brain haha!!

    Let us know how you get on - hope you manage to get some sleep tonight.

    Xx

  • Hi

    Hope you are ok,I know what you mean about the wobbles and it's not nice,I'm the same. As for the big man upstairs ha ha just what I call him as I never really believe of anyone up there but I'm in a state of desperation I think.

    Think I'm going to have a large brandy tonight this will hopefully help with the sleep situation,feel like I'm ready for any news now just need it over with. I will let you know how I get on......I'm hoping your really busy at weekend and it passes quick for you xx

  • Hi

    So the hospital has just rang 6 bloody hours before my appointment to cancel my appointment because my results arnt back because theres a back log in the pathology lab. To say I'm numb is an understatement.....not there until Wednesday morning now. Really dont know how I'm going to do any more days of this bloody torture xx

  • Oh my god - that is so s*** - excuse my language!

    I appreciate that things get held up etc but to not even tell you until 6 hours beforehand - you must be fuming but also just stressed about the further waiting.

    I'm really sorry this has happened.

    Sounds like we both need to try and keep busy this weekend to be as distracted from the anxiety as possible.

    Stay strong and hang in there - sending hugs xx

  • Can I ask what area you are in - just wondering how things differ from one place to the next!!

  • Hi

    Oh believe me I've done a hell of a lot of swearing this morning. I prepared myself for a call maybe yesterday about cancelling but thought with appointment day arriving I was good to go. Feel like I'm back to square one,it really is ***. I'm  in Manchester.....where are you at? If think we both definitely deserve a drink or two this weekend. How are you feeling? Xx

  • I don't blame you - swear away!! I think you deserve to vent!

    And you're right - we both deserve a drink! I will treat myself to a beer or two watching the rugby tomorrow haha!

    I'm in Basingstoke in Hampshire. Looks like both Basingstoke & Manchester get their results on a Wednesday!

    I'm feeling ok - struggling to concentrate on work today (hence why I'm replying to this rather than writing a report) and glad that it's the weekend.....Monday will feel a step closer to results day!

    Xx

  • A very well deserved beer at that.....its so hard to concentrate of anything isnt it,just feel like your making progress with being positive and then your mind goes for a wander AGAIN.....I'm not doing myself any favours though I've no appetite and struggling to sleep. I'd be happy to set up brandy intravenously until tues evening!! I didnt realise they only got results on a certain day,if that's the case then they would have known about mine two days ago. Xx

  • Oh, I don't know if they only get results on certain days - but was told mine are back on Wednesday aswell so was just being facetious! I am sure if they knew two days ago they would have informed you sooner.

    I definitely know how you feel with the mind wandering - it does my head in. Fine one minute then having a little cry the next (I find this happens when I'm driving.....not ideal for concentrating on the road haha!).

    My sleeping hasn't been too bad but going to bed later then usual so am extra tired when I'm trying to fall asleep. Plus I'm a six hours a night kinda girl anyway so never been huge on sleep!.

    Hang in there! We've go this x