Hi guys, promised myself I'd write a post hear once I knew what was what. So! Where do I start?! I had a pretty ruff year & to cut a long story short, developed really bad health anxiety. Suffered a pretty bad cough/cold that lasted a few weeks back in August 2020.. one side of my throat in particular was really soar for a few weeks... as I had a feel of my neck i found 2 small lumps on either side of my windpipe.. quite hard but movable. I put this down to the bad cough I had & that was that. Months went buy.. I could still feel the lumps but no other symptoms... out of curiosity I googled my symptoms.. HUGE MISTAKE! DO NOT GOOGLE YOUR SYSTOMS! CALL 111 SPEAK TO YOUR GP OR A TRAINED PROFESSIONAL! 

After seeing the dreaded L word my anxiety heightened & I have been to hell & back until today. I began prodding around my neck obsessively.. up all night reading lymphoma symptoms & worrying myself absolutely sick. I then found another small lump on the back of my neck & was then absolutely convinced I had Lymphoma. I have worn myself to the ground with worry & absolute terror & fear. It took Me almost a year to pluck up the courage to contact my GP 2 weeks ago, After explaining my symptoms she booked me in straight away for a FBC the following day. I was absolutely petrified but went anyway. FBC came back normal & I felt some relief for the first time In over a year! Ultersound scan booked as GP wants to double check the lymp nodes as they've been there longer then 6 months... PANIC ATTACK! I was back to square one! Waited 2 very very long weeks for the Ultersound today & sobbed my heart out the whole time I was at the hospital. Very nice doctor reassured me then & there that I have multiple reactive lymph nodes.. very healthy & absolutely nothing to worry about! After a year of worry, tears & absolute fear I can gratefully say I am okay & had nothing to worry About.

I wanted to write this post for anyone suffering from health anxiety over lymphoma fears & to please beg you to get it checked! My lymph nodes are small, soft, movable & painless.. they have not grown in size & I have no other symptoms other then terrible anxiety & irrational thoughts. 

I have wasted a whole year of my life being completely irresponsible by not contactng my GP sooner & getting to the bottom of this.

I want to send my heart & soul to ALL LYMPHOMA SOLDIERS! I SALUTE YOU & I'm sending you healing love & hugs!