Heya, I had a colposcopy on the 19th Jan 2022 and it wasn't that bad - mild discomfort while observing my cervix and then a sharp pinch when they gave me local anesthetic for LLETZ treatment/biopsy. The doctors were lovely and they remind you that you are in charge so don't be afraid to tell them if anything is uncomfortable, overwhelming etc - they're there to help you and they know how daunting it all is. If they're unsure they'll do a biopsy and LLETZ, from what I read, they can only tell you it's cancer on the day if it's very obvious (which at this stage, it likely wouldn't be which is good). If you have any questions about it, they ask you to ask them before the procedure which is very helpful. Hope all goes well! 

Yes it was the lletz I had done five years ago. I don't really remember much it's all a blur. I had just had my oldest so was in the baby bubble. Bit like just now. I'm more worried now due to previously needing treatment and now this time with the symptoms and the smear I find myself fearing the worst. I find it hard to talk about it to my partner or family as I just cry when I say it all out loud. Hoping for a positive outcome but fearing the worst at the moment 

I get you, I'm sure the treatment itself will go well but I understand your worries - I was panicking a lot before the appointment and right now I'm struggling with the panic of waiting for the biopsy results. I have a 10 year old son so my biggest fear (for my own body) is finding out I have cancer and the possibility of not being able to be here for him. It is a really scary situation to be in and I hope yours goes well and you get the all clear, just know that you're not alone.