Hi Jolamine 

so much goes round in your head doesn't it. 
Had my CT scan yesterday strange feeling

when I had my ultra sound he said my lymph nodes look ok and it looks like it's contained within the breast which is good. 
Now my mind gone in overdrive thinking can it still spread without lymph node involvement, I've had a headache pain in my arm and feeling sickly every little thing is making me think it's spread im literally driving myself crazy x

hi Linny, I'm 34, I was diagnosed yesterday with idc grade 2 er pos waiting on her2 results. I don't think there is a wrong or right way to do this stuff. 
your brain must be going a million miles an hour. It's natural to think the worst: keep your brain occupied. We have this! Try taking up something to help occupy you wondering brain. 
I am starting a cancer journey journey, I will be putting all my thoughts feelings and bits and pieces all together. This will be my reminder that I am a survivor of this dreadful disease. Also look at mindfulness, there are some very good audios to help. you. If you are really struggling speak to your breast nurse. If you need a chat I am here x

Hi again 

Thanyou both for your kinds words of support and I hope your both keeping well 

how are you coping rainbow do you know when you'll be starting you treatment. Have you got any children. 
Did you both have a list of questions to ask the consultant. 
I spent the weekend watching films on TV went into work today but staying off tomorrow. 
I spoke to the breast nurse today I'm now having a phone consultation tomorrow as the consultant has covid it will be 3 way with the breast nurse. I did ask how big my lump was as I didn't ask last week think I was partly in shock and denial. Its 5cm. I was asking lots of questions she just said the consultant will speak to you tomorrow, my head then goes into overdrive again thinking it's really bad news it's spread that's why she won't say anything. I'd got myself pretty calm until the phone call I'll know more tomorrow about what's going on. 

Linny x

Hi Linny 

so yes they have managed to grade and stage mine, my lump is around 2.3-2.5. With my er positive result my current plan is surgery first then radiotherapy, then obviously take it from there. If my her2 is positive, then they will switch me to chemo first. 
I have an appointment with my surgeon 3rd March. So really wanting my her2 results. 
The not knowing is so hard! Even through my plan is in theory for now, I can't rest until it's confirmed. Either way I need to know to get prepared! 
 

I have 3 children aged 11 13 and 15. 
I think I'm coping ok, I have started a blog with is massively helping me. It's forces me to face my feelings, which has been helpful. I was numb Friday Saturday then Sunday I just felt like everything has gone still and feel a little in limbo until her2 comes back

try to write a list of what you want to know, 
 

good look, I hope all is as positive as it can be for you x I'll be thinking of you x reach out if you need anything 

Hi Rainbow 

it's good you have a plan in place and your starting your road to recovery, a blog sounds like a good idea, how are your children coping with it all.

it is that not knowing isn't it as you want to know we're your journey is starting I also feel in limbo all the not knowing, after my consultation today I can start to plan my journey. My sister is really helpful she was diagnosed with breast cancer in may 2020  and is now in remission, I supported her right through her treatment shocked that I'm now in the same position so soon after. 
What area do you live 

Linny 

Hi again 

Had my phone call today it's estrogen positive grade 2 stage 2. As it's at least 5cm I'm having a mastectomy and radiotherapy. Maybe chemo after depending on lymph node biopsy. Will be on tablets for 5 years to stop it coming back. My CT was ok not spread to anywhere else which is good news. Just waiting for a date for surgery. I feel really calm now and can start my journey to recovery. 

hope your keeping well 

Linny x