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Waiting is so hard…..

Meadowsweet
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Hello everyone, I have been reading through the forum and have taken a great deal of comfort from your posts. 
I attended breast clinic last Monday after finding a lump in my right breast in September. 
 

I have had cysts twice before, one went on it's own, the other had to be drained. In all honesty I was just watching and waiting to see if this new lump would go. I have also been a little distracted as I have recently been diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis at the end of December.

when I attended clinic I had a mammogram, then ultrasound, then biopsy. I was informed that it wasn't a cyst but a solid mass. The consultant came to speak to me and asked if I was still working (yep) and advised me to speak to my employer as I was looking at needing ongoing treatment.  They booked me an appointment for 26th January to get my results which feels ages away and advised me to bring someone with me.

I was so taken aback at the appointment I don't think it sunk in and they kept asking if I understood what was happening. They were all really kind but I think I was just a bit numb. 
 

so far I have just told my husband and my boss - I deal in facts and until I have them all there is nothing else I can do. Just finding it torturous at the moment, and impossible not to google everything. 
 

sending love and positivity out to all who are waiting

meadow
 

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    Hi Meadow,

    A very warm welcome to our forum.

    I had a similar experience when I first attended the breast clinic. It is daunting to say the least when you are told straight away that it's not going to be good news, even before your results come back. The only good thing about this is that you have this waiting time to gradually come to terms with your diagnosis, rather than being hit with it unexpectedly on the day.

    I know that it's difficult not to google, but we aways advise people not to do this, as this will only scare you further. Try to keep yourself busy to help the waiting time to pass. I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer in the past 12 years and I still lead a busy and fulfilling life, so don't give up hope. Breast cancer is one of the most treatable forms of cancer today.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

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    Jolamine

    Thankyou  so much for your reply and your kindness. I am using your example of living after cancer to calm myself down. I am also using this time at work to prepare my work to handover should I need to, which will greatly reduce my stress if it does turn out to be cancer. Keeping busy is certainly helping. The only problem is nights as that is when my brain runs away with itself.

    can I just ask what I can expect at the results appointment. I am debating going on my own as I usually do better on my own, but my husband is keen to come with me. 

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    So sorry to hear you have found yourself in this limbo of waiting. I hope you can keep yourself busy, maybe even ask the doctor for something to help yourself sleep in the interim. My anxiety is still high but I'm managing better because I can get some sleep.

    Best wishes xx

     

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    Thankyou Vegmum

    I have spoken to my GP this morning and they are going to prescribe me something to help me sleep in the short term. I'm fine during the day, it's just at night.

    take care
     

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