Hi Lic

Are you able to share a little more about what you’re afraid of so that perhaps  we can reassure you a little about those fears?

You have already been brave enough to go for smears and you’ve had treatment for abnormal cells with the loop excision, so this would just be another step to check that you have nothing serious going on. It’s much better, honestly, to have symptoms investigated and resolved rather than go through anything more major. xx

I am afraid of HPV still being there or cells being affected. It's absolutely terrifies me and takes up so much of my thoughts all day. 

I have tried therapy to overcome negative thoughts but I find myself googling and thinking all of the time.

I think having the increased discharge is worrying me and making me think something is going on that's bad. 

I had a c section three months ago so insure of that plays a part in increased discharge of if it's something else. I am just worrying all of the time.

Thank you for replying to me 

I am afraid of HPV still being there or cells being affected. It's absolutely terrifies me and takes up so much of my thoughts all day. 

I have tried therapy to overcome negative thoughts but I find myself googling and thinking all of the time.

I think having the increased discharge is worrying me and making me think something is going on that's bad. 

I had a c section three months ago so insure of that plays a part in increased discharge of if it's something else. I am just worrying all of the time.

Thank you for replying to me 

You might test positive for high risk HPV again, as it’s an extremely common result but it’s only when it causes cell changes that it can produce potential issues. The vast majority of people won’t even know they have HPV: if it’s dormant rather than active, you would test negative at your screening, but the virus is still in your body- there isn’t a cure for it. And there is no test for men. So having hpv in itself is not something you should spend time worrying over.

If the virus has caused changes to the cells, depending on the severity of the changes they would be either monitored or removed as you’ve had done before. 

Discharge can be for all sorts of reasons, so may not be in any way connected to having the virus.

Google is seriously not a good idea- you’ll be reading about cancer and all sorts of horror stories and it cannot tell you what is wrong, even if you might have similar symptoms to those you are reading about. If google could diagnose us, doctors wouldn’t be needed at all! 

You have a new baby to enjoy, so much better to concentrate on that instead of obsessing on the Internet. If there were something wrong, and you did nothing about it because you were too fearful, it could get worse, and that would make everything much harder for you. It will be better for you to get your results and if anything further is needed you can have this done and get on with your life. Perhaps it’s time to seek more help for your anxiety, as this can be very debilitating in itself. xx

Can changes in hormones from having your baby increase your amount of discharge. Like I said I'm no doc. You can have your hormones checked but probably can't why the NHS is under all this pressure. Let's hope when you have your next smear the hpv as cleared and your body as regulated your hormones. All the best.