Yes, I feel the same! We're so lucky that things have moved on so much! My mom had breast cancer 26 years ago, and unfortunately passed 17 years ago. She wouldn't have had any of this. Plus the fact that the treatment, testing etc has also progressed massively!! 
 

I was like a contortions!! My left boob was sideways in the machine, and the rest of the top half of my body was twisted to the right! The idea was to get the closest position to the calcification. I had no idea how it was going to work! But the needle that takes the samples it actually in the mammo! The Drs put coordinates into the machine, and then the machine tells them where it's in the right position or not! So clever. It didn't hurt at all, as they use local first. It was just uncomfortable sitting like that!

I'm praying they have enough to give me the results, and praying harder that they come back benign! 

I hope you do too. Xxx

I started this chat because like you, I was scared and wanted to reach out to other people who were going through this.  It has given me so much comfort on some dark days (and I'm probably 10 years older than some of you ladies), but still pretty scared.  So, crash in wherever and whenever you want to.  I hope it gives you the comfort and perspective that it gave me.

Wishing you all the best.  Do stay positive x

Well I personally thank you for starting this chat and am glad it has provided you with some comfort in these scary times. Everything you have been through til this point and everything that is still to come is understandably frightening and fear does not discriminate by age! 

Take care, look after yourself and hoping for the best for you x

Had my MRI scan this morning. Was OK, but now at home with just my 6 year old son who is off sick,  as his dad has had to go out. I feel strange, faintly nervous and sad. I just hate going through all of this. It is hard to stay positive all of the time. Ugh. Don't know what I should be doing with myself. Xx

Hi Vicki,

Glad the MRI went ok - but not surprising you're feeling a bit lost - pretty sure there's no right or wrongs in these situations (unless it's illegal!!) so go with the flow and be kind to yourself.

Have they said how long until you get the results & a treatment plan?

Hope your little boy isn't too poorly.

Take care x

Hello 

They said a couple of days for results to be sent. I've got a pet ct scan on Monday as well. Then I guess I'll get my plan. My mind keeps wandering to the scary dark place where I'm paranoid they will say that whatever I've got has spread everywhere. It's hideous. Spoke to a nurse the other day who said highly unlikely as most of what I have is in situ, I only have a small amount of invasive and my lymph nodes were clear. Still, the mind still likes to take me to the dark scary place. It's grim! Xx

The mind is a dangerous thing. It's so natural to catastrophise and jump to worst case scenarios even when the staistics are in our favour! We can rationalise it as much as we like but still those horrible dark thoughts keep coming. 

God, that sounded depressing!! Sorry!!

Have you got anything planned for over the weekend to keep your mind distracted even if only for short periods? 

x

My lovely neighbour has a beach hut in whitstable and has given me the keys, so we are going to go and use that and look at the sea and breathe that lovely air in. she is a breast cancer survivor. I'm lucky to have her as a neighbour. 

Xx

That sounds perfect!

Enjoy every minute x