Hey, I know its a really scary time and sometimes the not knowing and the waiting for results are some of the most excrutiating. I'm sorry to hear that you've exprienced lymphoma in your family, so you must be hyper aware of the potential future. In times like these, you might find some comfort in accepting that whatever happens over the next few weeks is already in motion, and that the best thing you can do is go with the flow to ride the wave, while also making plans to help support your boyfriend with whatever he needs.

I'm currently waiting to be seen about a persistant lump in my neck, with my ultrasound coming up, and i'm very worried too; but at the same time, I know that theres not really a lot i can do right now. Worrying about it (while it's still not a definite) will tarnish the days i have leading up to whatever diagnosis. While at the same time, mentally, i've started planning who i need to contact at work and how much money i have in savings that would support my mortgage if i was to need treatment - to feel more in conrol of an otherwise uncontrollable situation. I haven't told my boy friend yet because i don't want him to be worried too, i think we just want to control our lives as much as possible and have normality.

Wishing you and your boyfriend all the best

Thank you for this I really needed to hear someone say something positive. It's very hard to stay positive in times like these especially when you know personally what it's like to be dealing with a cancer scare. 

Hope everything goes ok for you and your results x

Thank you for this I really needed to hear someone say something positive. It's very hard to stay positive in times like these especially when you know personally what it's like to be dealing with a cancer scare. 

Hope everything goes ok for you and your results x