Nervous first appoitment wait

Hi all

 

Decided to reach out.

 

My dentists picked up on a suspicious mark on my   tongue and have been fast tracked on the cancer pathway with my maxofacial appoitment being on xmas eve.

I thought i had bitten my tongue but the dentists has made me so scared now. I saw the referrall and it has cancer written allover it.

One minute i am ok as i distract myself the next minute my brain goes into spiralling thoughts of worst case scenraio.

I am having a biospy but that is all i know.

My grandma died the day before the refferral went through so brains a bit full at the moment and am struggling to start grieveing. Any thoughts about xmas are limited.

Husband has been great keeping me going but i cannot put it all on him.

Im 39.

Its all been so quick, a week! But thats good though just a lot to process.

I started googling but then it didnt look good so i stopped.

Anyway have a greay day.