Hi, I don't know how to start this so I will start at the beginning. I have been reading numerous posts on here which have helped ease my anxiety and fingers crossed one day, this post may do the same.

Around August 2021 I noticed a mole on my back had been picked. - I had recently gone on the pill and was covered in cystic like spots which I itched. I believe I was just scratching and caught the mole. Nonetheless, due to my mum being diagnosed with S4 Melanoma December 2020, I have been extra vigilent with my moles so I decided to get it checked with my GP.

GP had a little look and also noticed the mole next to it which is quite big and unevenly coloured. I got referred under the 2 week referral and waited for my appointment. Stupidly, I applied fake tan (as I usually would) and I believe the tan did make the mole look uneven.

Fast forward to my dermatology appointment where I was put on a 3 month review. My dermatologist didnt want to remove the moles 'as it would leave scars unnessarily'. The derm said the 'big' mole was just a 'big mole' but wanted a picture anyway to monitor. She agreed that the other mole was unevenly coloured but said that this is most likely due to me scratching it due to the hormonal acne type spots, but again to take a photo. I do personally believe the mole has come back to 'full health' but we will see. I was sent to have photographs of the two moles taken & have waited for my review appointment - anxiety free until of course I receive the invitation back.

And here I am now, 2 days before my review and full of anxiety. I am looking at other moles and convincing myself they have changed, a different colour or something else. I am trying to tell myself this is just my anxiety and to just focus. I will have other moles checked over and I did previously also.

I guess I am here for some reassurance. Was my derm right in saying that she didnt want to remove the moles? I am very much a 'put trust into the professionals' kind of person & I want to trust that this was because she didnt see much in it. 

Side note for people wondering (because I would be) - My mum was diagnosed with Stage 4 Melanoma and they could never actually find the mole. She is taking immunotherapy medication as she has the BRAF Gene which means she has a choice of the IV and tablet form of this treatment. The doctors etc told my mum 'not to expect YEARS'. However, her recent scans show that the majority of the cancer has been cleared and they are becoming increasingly more and more excited by this. *fingers crossed for her most recent scan last week  & brain scan*

Thank you for reading. Now I understand why the posts I read are so long, its very easy! S x