I know it's really difficult not to, but try not to think about it; find some things to take your mind off it, and step away from Google. I hope you get your colonoscopy appointment in place soon, I think it helps settle the nerves a bit when you have a date to "look forward to"... and remember too, you're in the best position to be in if there should be anything serious to worry about. Thank goodness you're on your way to a diagnosis and not struggling to be heard. 

Take care of yourself (and don't fret about it, the procedure honestly is not that bad) this is a great wee spot for support any time you need it x

Thank you for your kind response, I'm hoping I'll have heard something over the next couple of days as when things are all up in the air it makes my anxiety worse. Trying to be as strong as I can for my family as I don't want to spoilt their Christmas. Thank you for telling me that the procedure isn't that bad, hopefully the staff are all friendly when I go which will put me at my ease x

It sounds like you had an agonising wait too over the Xmas/new year period. I never thought I would be so ungrateful for bank holidays! I hope things are going well for you now? I'm trying to keep as frantically busy as possible but keep having lots of wobbles x 

I had  ovarian surgery at the end of October much more extensive than expected took 4 1/2 hrs fortunately l had the oncology surgeon she said others would have bailed out and not removed my adhesions. It was a nervous wait for the biopsies to come back l was so relieved that they were benign. It's taking a while to get back to my normal self fortunately my husband has been great. My wounds were larger than expected and very bruised but my Gp have been really good sorting my problems out. 
Do take care and let others help you when you need it, Talk to those that can give you support . Don't forget that we are here if you have any questions. Hoping that you have the same outcome and an operation can sort your problems out . I am glad l have had my surgery during the Covid cutbacks in hospitals, being on the oncology list definitely helps. 
merry Christmas being busy helps to pas the time. 
susie

Hi

Sounds like you've been incredibly brave and resilient throughout, I hope some of your strength and courage rubs off on me. I'm glad that your surgery went well (despite it being longer than planned) and that you've had a fantastic outcome in the end :) it definitely helps to have a good support network, I should probably try to rebuild mine x