Waiting for first appointment at breast clinic

Hi I'm new to this site. It looks a very supportive forum and I know will be better than my incessant googling. I'm aware many of you are much further along the journey. I have a sizeable lump in my right breast, I'm 48. My GP said she was hopeful it is a cyst as it felt circular but that she would keep her fingers crossed for me.  It's between the size of a walnut and lime so pretty big and at the bottom to outside of my breast. I'm obviously terrified that because of it's size if it is cancer it won't be good news. I'm finding the waiting absolutely unbearable and I'm struggling sleeping. Because of its size I find it really hard to not think about and it also feels very achy. 
My apointment is on the 21st December and I understand they will do biopsy and mammagram etc and then it will be around a week for results - depending on Christmas/ New Year.  At the moment I'm thinking of every possible worst case scenaro. I'm always a very pro active patient and often an advocate on behalf of family members and feel so helpless at the moment. In terms of questions to ask on the 21st any pointers would be appreciated. Also any top tips on how to switch off a very worried mind. Many thanks and sending much love to you all 

  • Thanks for your message, I am very relieved and can now focus on Christmas, I'm sorry that your apointment wasn't quite as straightforward. I had a biopsy about 11 years ago that was a fibreadenoma, I think it unlikely that they would say they thought it was that if it wasn't so fingers crossed all will be well. 
    Please keep us updated once you have your results. 
    Hope you have a lovely Christmas xx

  • Thanks so much. I hope you are ok and your anxiety isn't going through the roof. I know the waiting is really tough. I found meditations for sleep and meditations for healing really helped to listen to and relax me before going to sleep. 
    My worst point today was waiting for the consultant before the tests I felt like my heart was beating at 200 beats a minute. The consultant was so kind and after examining me reassured me straight away that she thought it was a cyst. That put my mind at rest no end and I managed to get through the other tests without experiencing flight or flight mode. 
    I hope everything goes ok for you on Thursday. I'm here if you need or want to talk x

  • I Hope your appointment went ok, I am also waiting for an appointment on 29th so having to go through Christmas with the constant worrying about the lump might be. I am 45 and lost my mum to breast cancer at 51 so the anxiety is over whelming. Anyway, I hope things went ok with you today xx sending lots of love 

  • Thanks for your very kind message. My apointment went well thanks and the lump was a large cyst. They found another lump the size of a marble both of which they drained. The worrying was overwhelming at times in the lead up to the apointment so I really feel for you. I'm really sorry to hear that you lost your Mum to breast cancer. I was told cysts are really common in women my age (48) and the majority of women referred to breast clinic don't have breast cancer. 
    Have you discussed your situation with close friends/ family? I didn't want to worry everyone and spoil Christmas but ended up confiding in my sister and a couple of close friends. I couldn't have got through the wait without their support. This group has been great too. 
    I found keeping busy - listening to audible books when tidying/ driving helped as it kept my brain occupied. I'll keep everything crossed for you for the 29th. Sending lots of love 

  • I'm so pleased to read you've been given the all clear. I keep telling myself it's more likely to be something beign but as you well know your brain likes to imagine the worst. I've told a few people so do have the support, thanks for the positive message - really appreciate it and glad you can enjoy the break now xx 

  • The wait is the worst thing of all. My appt is tomorrow and the anxiety is really getting to me now.  My mum died of breast cancer at the age of 55 and im 60  x. I try to stay positive but my mind always wanders to dark places xx  the 29th will be here before you know it 

  • Thanks for your message, good to get your appointment in before Xmas, I'm sure you're feeling anxious. Having lost your mum to cancer makes the waiting even more traumatic. I keep telling myself that whatever the outcome, the treatment available today is so much better than 20 years ago and the positive stories of people living through a diagnosis is getting better all the time. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow - it's more likely to be nothing serious so stay positive xxx 

  • Thank you fir your kind words. My mum was 25yrs ago. Just scared to go tomorrow and worried about spoiling Xmas for my family. I suffer with health anxiety and panic attacks so this is really exacerbating that.

    thank you 

  • Not knowing the situation and having to wait whilst your brain can lead you to dark places is terribly hard. It's least at your appointment you should get clarity and hopefully peace of mind. Let us know how you get on. I'm an emotional rollercoaster at the moment - worried about catching Covid and not being able to make my appointment and just the up and down of waiting over all of Christmas. I totally understand how you must be feeling. Reading the posts on here I do feel that no matter the outcome of my appointment there's hope and a good chance everything will be ok and I'll get through whatever is thrown at me. 
     

    Christmas certainly adds another pressure to the whole thing but im sure you'll feel less up and down after your appointment. Lots of love and hugs xx