Waiting for first appointment at breast clinic

Hi I'm new to this site. It looks a very supportive forum and I know will be better than my incessant googling. I'm aware many of you are much further along the journey. I have a sizeable lump in my right breast, I'm 48. My GP said she was hopeful it is a cyst as it felt circular but that she would keep her fingers crossed for me.  It's between the size of a walnut and lime so pretty big and at the bottom to outside of my breast. I'm obviously terrified that because of it's size if it is cancer it won't be good news. I'm finding the waiting absolutely unbearable and I'm struggling sleeping. Because of its size I find it really hard to not think about and it also feels very achy. 
My apointment is on the 21st December and I understand they will do biopsy and mammagram etc and then it will be around a week for results - depending on Christmas/ New Year.  At the moment I'm thinking of every possible worst case scenaro. I'm always a very pro active patient and often an advocate on behalf of family members and feel so helpless at the moment. In terms of questions to ask on the 21st any pointers would be appreciated. Also any top tips on how to switch off a very worried mind. Many thanks and sending much love to you all 

  • Hi I'm 60 and also waiting for a clinic appointment. Have found a lump on inner aspect of left breast about 3cms and have not stopped worrying about cancer etc . It so difficult to try and switch off. I have a lot of dark moments and have difficulty switching off . Can't concentrate it's like a roller coaster. I know that when I get the letter for appointment etc my anxiety will be through the roof. I suffer with health anxiety and panic attacks as it is .  If u need to chat always here 

     

  • Same here. Just out of Dr apt. Two lumps one two cm and one smaller. She said they feel quite cyst like or gland like but getting reffered to check. Can't stop thinking the worst and totally scared. 

  • Thanks for your reply and offer to chat which is very much appreciated. I can really empathise I too feel like I'm on a rollercoaster and am struggling to stay positive. When did you go to see your GP? I saw my Gp last Wednesday and had my appointment sent through the day after. I just want to go now and get the appointment over and done with even though I know I'll be feeling physically sick with anxiety on the day. I phoned and asked about cancellations but apparently it's all done on a click to book site via the GP practices. 
    Hope you hear some news soon and sending lots of positive thoughts your way. 
     

  • I don't think anybody says is going to make the worry any easier . It consumes me everyday and I feel as if I'm on a roller coaster . One minute I'm positive the next negative .  Harder as well as we have Xmas on the horizon . I think my age goes against me but reading on here it's any age . I want to get clinic appointment sorted but then I don't because I will know what I might be dealing with . Ignorance is bliss comes to mind .  Always here if you need to chat . 

  • Hi your welcome. I also went last Wednesday but not heard anything yet ?  When is your appt ? Just waiting is awful and like you want to get sorted but at the Same time feel sick at the prospect. I think it's all made harder as you've got to go in on your own too . My anxiety is through the roof and sleep difficult . Take care and I'm sure everything will be positive for you .  Could I ask how old you are if that's not too rude ? Xx 

  • I too feel so scared. I think it's because everything is so out of my control. A close friend said the good news is that I found the lump. I think it's the uncertainty and the waiting. Two weeks normally goes by in a flash but it's like an eternity. 
    Have you shared your news with anyone? I've only told my partner, sister and a very close friend as I don't want everyone worrying. It definitely helped talking. Hope you get an appointment date through soon. 

     

  • I'm in the same position as most of you other ladies here. 2cm lump found in my right breast 10 days ago. Waiting for my mammogram / biopsy (not sure what they will do) My breast clinic apt is also on the 21st. Really hoping they will give some indication at that apt rather than needing to wait, the waiting is soul destroying isn't it !! 

    Are your lumps painful ? Mine is causing me no pain at all, I've never felt my boobs so much...keep checking if it's still there....forever hopeful I suppose. 

    Good luck to each and every one of you xx

     

  • Not rude at all. I'm 48. My hospital appointment is on the 21st December. X

  • Well I'm hoping that mine comes through soon . I feel so old compared to all of you ha ha. Let's hope that we all have positive outcomes. X

  • Thanks for your reply. The 21st is going to be an emotionalday for us! The waiting feels unbearable and like time is standing still. I'm hoping too that on the 21st they will give me an idea of what I'm dealing with. I will be pressing for that. 
    My lump is painful/ tender if I touch it - which like you I've been doing a lot! The rest of the time it feels sore/ tender like how your boobs are before a period. I have been told everyone's experience is so individual, it's good to know we aren't alone with this and we have an army of brave warriors who have walked this path before us. Xx