My grandad has been diagnosed in the last three weeks after being ill for a few weeks at home. He has small cell lung cancer but unfortunately there were cells found in the glands of his lung and after his pet CT scan results today when we met the oncologist sadly it's also spread to his bones his spine,hip,rib and leg. They can't give us a timeframe. It's come out of the blue no indication at all previous to his illness from September to now. He has a bad heart and due to start chemo in two weeks only to prolong his life. I don't want to sound ungrateful that we are offered more time with him by having the chemo but I have worries on what quality of life will this be for my grandad. He is 74 so not too old considering I'm 34 myself. He has been a father figure in my life and I'm really bloody angry at the world.today.

Ive taken it upon myself to be the strong one for my whole family the one taking charge of everything necessary. But today I broke and I cannot stop crying. It's the first night I've come to my own house in three weeks  from their house as I don't want him to see me cry. I want to write him a letter not to say goodbye but just to tell him how much I love him. To thank him and to promise him I will take care of nan my my aunties cousins etc as he Is the rock of our family and I know he is scared to leave us all behind .is this a good idea I can't say it to him directly as I will cry and I have to stay strong and deal with whatever life Is about to throw my way. This is by far the most serious and hardest thing I've ever had to navigate in my 34 years. Which I suppose I'm lucky to have reached this age without having to.

Any advice or information on he type of cancer I e written about from first hand experience is really appreciate it

Love jaime