Morning Effie, 

What a lovely post, thank you for taking the time to put a smile back on our faces. 
 

How are you getting on? I'm not sure if you've started your chemo now? Don't feel like you have to reply if you're not in the right place. 
 

it's not easy this journey, but for me, being able to share the highs and lows on this site and hopefully help others do the same is just so important. 
 

High: I actually managed to sleep about three hours straight last night, which is a first since I began this journey and I did drift back off again when I kept waking up. So I think the coffee might help me get through today. 
 

Virtual smiles and hugs to you. 
Mickey xx

Morning Mickey! 

Yesterday was a weird one. I still haven't told anyone at work - I don't want to say anything until I know what I'm dealing with, and also I thought I might burst into tears if I said it out loud. It still feels unreal to be honest. So I carried on as normal, and just prayed people wouldn't breezily ask "How are you?". It was a bit surreal but actually I coped ok and it ended up feeling like a normal day. But other people's problems certainly seemed trivial!

I may come to you for advice when it comes to actually saying something because I feel just like you. They'll have to know, but I don't know how much they have to know and I don't know whether to tell them or tell my line manager and let her spread the news. Ugh :(

Anyway, I'm glad you managed to get a few hours uninterrupted sleep last night. I was in bed by 8pm, and slept more than I have in days. Still woke every couple of hours, but got back to sleep with the help of a podcast in the background. I can't lie in silence because my mind goes into overdrive!

Anyway, better go. Back in work today.
Hope your day goes ok. Look after yourself!

hugs,

Jxxxx

Morning Jenny, 

I'm really pleased you got through yesterday and hope today goes as smoothly at work. I get everything you're saying and we'll catch up when you have time. Always here and if it comes to it for you, happy to advise and tell you how it went with me - but just remember that is totally in your control and your choice. 
 

have a great day. 
mickey 

xx 

Evening Jenny, hope your day at work was good and has been a distraction for you today.  Just an update, I got a phone call lunch time with a cancellation apt at 1.30 and so I've been in and had that stereotactic biopsy done. Feel groggy and a little high from the anaesthetic, but I'm so relieved that is over - 90 minutes of my life I'm glad to have behind me now. Luv n virtual hugs Mickey xx 

Hi everyone. I have BreastCancer stage 2 also mucinous. I have my last chemo of six in a few weeks and finding it all exhausting. It's so nice to read all your messages and know that others are going through the same thing. I have just seen the surgeon and have a mastectomy and reconstruction planned for December. I haven't been able to work as a Nursery Teacher because of germs etc so not used to being at home. It is a long journey and can be isolating so it's great to be in contact with others. 
stay strong girls we can do this xxxxxx

Hi Picklejaz, sorry to hear about your diagnosis my fellow mucinous too (embarrassed face). Is yours pure or mixed? Mines mixed. You're obvs further ahead than me, as apart from surgery, I won't know my treatment plan until these further biopsy results from today are ready. Few more weeks. Sorry to hear about your job, that's tough, I'm working from home currently now for similar reasons, but not sure how long before I end up going officially sick depends on my treatment plan and how I'm coping I guess. 
 

I'm not very knowledgeable about all this yet, but is the chemo first to shrink the tumour before they operate then? 
 

im glad you joined the chat, like you say, it's so isolating and these chats do really seem to help so many people to learn, listen, support and feel supported and that's great. 
 

Mickey xx 

Oh Mickey that's great! I'm so glad! It must feel good having that behind you - apart from being back in the dreaded 'awaiting results' club of course!! Still, one less thing to worry about and one step closer to treatment! Thanks for letting me know :)

I had a long day at work but it was ok again, thanks. I just pretend everything's fine and there are moments when I believe it. I'm off for a couple of days now so will have to find something else to keep me busy! 

Hope you have a relaxing evening and get a good nights sleep!

Hugs, Jxx

Hey Picklejaz!

Great name! Welcome to our little supportive world but sorry you have to be here! Glad that treatment is underway for you and it sounds as though you're heading for the finishing line. Congratulations on getting this far, I already think you're amazing! 

Hope you're managing to keep busy at home, or enjoying not being busy. If you every want company we won't be far away! I can't offer much advice right now, I'm still totally new to all this and have never heard of half the terms that people use, but I'm happy to listen and reassure you that you are not alone!

We can totally do this and will come out so much stronger at the other end!

Jenny xx

Hi Jenny,

This time twelve years ago, I had lost my mum to secondary breast cancer and had just been diagnosed myself. I had 2 young teenage children at the time and was concerned that I might not live to see them grow up. Since then I have had another bout of breast cancer,  but have seen my children leave school, go to university, graduate, find gainful employment, marry and have a family of their own. It will never be the same as it was, but I still live a busy and fulfilled life.

Breast cancer is currently one of the most treatable forms of cancer. Here's hoping that you get good news next week.

Please keep in touch.

Kind regards,
Jolamine xx