Morning Jenny, just noticed you'd put a separate post on and so I wanted to re-send those virtual hugs xx I would suggest that as you have your BCN's name that you ring her tomorrow and tell her that you are confused and if you really do want to know now, ask her if she can confirm it's cancer as that's how you were led to believe it. Love n hugs Mickey xx 

I think that's a good plan Jenny, totally understandable how you feel. More virtual hugs, I'm going to try and take a nap now, got to try xx 

Hey Mickey, how are you feeling today? I thought it was days since you posted your last reply to me and it was only yesterday - omg time it's going soooo slowly!!! Just wanted to let you know that I finally got hold of my BCN today and while she couldn't give me much more info, she did confirm there's a 99% chance my lump is cancerous. So that's devastating but at least I'm prepared for the results next week. She also said it was treatable so I'm focusing on that - though with my levels of anxiety I'm already thinking, what if it's spread, what if they're wrong. It's so exhausting! I hope you're doing ok and your appointment goes well tomorrow. At least it's another step forward! I'll be thinking of you. Hugs xx

Hey Jenny, I'm glad you spoke to your BCN, it's hard when it's not good news, but if you're like me, you'd rather know , so you can prepare. I had another setback today sadly, so I took the day off work, they've had to cancel my stereotactic biopsy due tomorrow because of staff sickness - whet a nightmare!! So I took my own advice and rang my BCN and she's just rang me back and bless her beennsorting out when they can get me back in - sadly not for two weeks and so that will obvs set back my treatment plan. Trying to stay positive, but my plan of just doing 'one thing' keeps going awry (laughing face) xx at least once you get your results you will know exactly what you're dealing with xx here anytime for support and thanks to you for yours xx love n virtual hugs Mickey xx 

Oh no! That sucks! I'm so sorry you have that extra wait - it's the last thing anyone wants at this stage! I'm here if you need me and yes, try to stay positive or at least keep your mind off it. I'm going into work today for the first time since my diagnosis. No idea if it will help or I'll fall apart.

Hugs xxxx

PS getting up when it's pitch black and wet outside isn't great for lifting the spirits!!! X

Thanks Jenny, I'm going to try to work too, but I'm so tired.  I hope it helps you. Thanks for your support and you have mine too. The gloominess of the weather dues make it harder, I agree. Positively though it makes me 'allow' myself to put on my dressing gown and somehow that always comforts me xx hugs to you too xx 

Hi both ,

Reading this post made me smile. 
great to hear supporting messages as always:)

it sounds like you two have been great friends for ages.

best of luck to you both

vertual hugs all round 

Efffie xx

Hi Efffie! 

Glad we made you smile. It's amazing how many lovely people there are on this site and yes, Mickey showed up at just the right time for me. It's strange talking to complete strangers that you end up feeling so close to. I'm sure we can all get each other through this!

I'm sorry you're here (if you know what I mean) and wish I could offer you some advice with what you're going through, but the terms are all still alien to me. All I know is, it's good that it is being monitored and you will get through whatever you have to do to beat this!
 

Jenny xx