I put a post about my dad having bowel cancer and found out today he has stage 2 Bowel cancer (the worst kind)
They are going to start my dad on chemo first to blast it as much as possible then go from there.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried about him and how the chemo will effect him. I know chemo effects people differently but im really worried it'll be like you see on the news or film where he loses all his hair, loses loads of weight, gets extremely irritable, weak!
my dad is a mucley guy from up north so seeing him so vulnerable is really scaring me.
if appriciate any one who's been in the same situation and how to deal with it?
Do I try carry on with life and be happy? Or do I take time to just be sad? I honestly don't know why I should be doing with my life. I feel helpless. If I try to be happy and carry on with life I feel like I shouldn't be happy, I shouldn't smile because if I do does that mean I don't care for my dad?
if you new me personally you'd know I'm a very anxious person who worry's a lot and I'm very emotional. I cry when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when it's a Tuesday!
honestly if really appreciate some advice?!
thanks
Ellisha