Hi

Sorry to hear about your Dad's diagnosis. My Dad was diagnosed with lung cancer around 6 weeks ago, also with shadows on his liver and spine and I know exactly what you mean with all those emotions. When I first found out, it came at me like a sledge hammer. I felt sick, heartbroken, devastated and for days I cried, almost like I was in mourning because whenever you hear the word cancer, you automatically think the worst. I felt guilty for laughing if I did, for trying to carry on with normality (I have 2 children and currently 26 weeks pregnant), it was a rollercoaster of emotions and it still is. 

My Dad started his first round of treatment (chemo and immunotherapy) 2 weeks ago, he has his second cycle next week. I won't lie, it's not a nice thing to see them go through and everyone is different with how the cope with treatment. My Dad has lost weight, but he did have a stressful couple of weeks leading up to his treatment, which I think took a toll on him too. He did have a few days where he slept all day but today he's eaten some bacon and eggs instead of his weetabix, he went out for a cup of tea yesterday and tomorrow he is going to try and do the same again. His skin looks a bit pale and as expected, just a bit weak. But apart from that, he has been OK.

At the moment, all we can do is take each day as it comes, some days will be good and some will be bad. Support your Dad, try and keep him healthy and positive and also the same for yourself. I've had a day today where I am so exhausted I wanted to cry, I have Mum guilt, it's rained all day and I haven't done much with the kids today, but tomorrow is a new day.

Try not to think too much into the future, I know what you're probably thinking, it's always on my mind too but you have to tackle one day at a time.

Look after yourself, and keep us posted on your Dad.

Take Care

Lucie x