Hi barbirgirl46. I'm so sorry that you've found yourself on this site. I joined in February last year after being diagnosed with Her2 positive bc. It's extremely hard to focus on anything until you have all your results. My advice to you is to be kind to yourself, allow yourself to feel what ever you feel and take time. I was a complete wreck until I started chemo. Please feel free to chat to me about anything and everything x. Mine was a large lump and had spread to my lymph nodes under my arm,I too had 6 rounds of chemo, 20 radiotherapy, surgery and I've got 2 left out of a further 12 chemo. Jenny xx 

Hi Jenny 

thanks so much for replying. I just feel like everything I knew is now gone. I'm just on hold and I'm struggling with it. I'm literally just trying to kill time and get through each day but I spend most of my time crying. I'm pretty sure mine is in lymph nodes as they said a couple look swollen and I'm hoping it is no where else but I'm imagining because of the size it is and it is consuming me . 
 

how are you getting on now after surgery? So you are into second round of chemo? 
 

Hi try not to worry,I also am HER2 positive I've had 6 months of chemo had lump removed and lymph nodes under my arm also,they removed all the cancer and now I waiting for radiotherapy then having chemo tablets for 8 months,so it's not all bad and you do recover from it all.I did lose all my hair but growing back now,there are great wigs if you do lose you hair,there is light at the end of the tunnel and remember not every one suffers from the side effects x

Hi. Thanks for replying.  It's good to hear other people's stories. How did you feel after chemo ? It's all so daunting not knowing what to expect. 

I felt tired after chemo and lost my appetite,we all worry before but I'm so glad as it did shrink the lump and they then removed it,I wasn't worried about losing my hair either.You will be fine just think positive.

I think that's how most people feel, I know I did! I honestly didn't know I could cry so much lol. You are going to be on a massive emotional roller coaster, honestly you will have great days, and not so great ones. Waiting is by far the worst part, once you have all your results you can start moving forward. Whe do you get your results? My lump was 54mm and I was meant to have a mastectomy, but the chemo completely got rid of all the cancer and I ended up only needed a lumpectomy and full node clearance. I had 20 lots of radiotherapy and now I'm having herceptin and pertuzumab. 

Right now everything is so overwhelming, but you will be ok and it will become easier to deal with. 

I'm doing really well after surgery thank you. 

I've sent you a request for friends, feel free to add me and we can chat, you can ask me anything.

Thank you Jenny , I have accepted your request and no doubt will be asking questions . I appreciate it . Thank you x