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Jax69
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Hi. Don't quite know where to start. The beginning is always the best. For the past 14 yrs I go for yearly mammograms. All been negative till 2 weeks on Thursday. Recalled back in for ultrasound. Soon as I entered the room a nurse placed a box of tissues near me. I knew instantly. Ultrasound done and biopsies taken. I asked the radiologist to be honest as far as she could tell. She didn't need to tell me. Her eyes did it for me. I think because they all know me as I've been going for all those years. Looks like it's been caught early. Still doesn't help you does it? I received a phone call  yesterday to say results in and appointment booked for tomorrow. That dreaded Thursday again. Il never look at Thursdays in the same light. However am I going to take those steps into that hospital. My legs feel extremely heavy now, like I know I'm walking but how. I know I'm going to just go off into another world whilst the specialist is handing out my findings. I just dont know how I'm going to do it

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    Hi,

    I know exactly how you felt , I have never experienced feeling that way in my life before , it was a place in my head I never want to visit again. 
     

    try not to worry about the operation too much , when I had my lump removed from my cervix I was petrified being put  to sleep as never even been in hospital before except to have the kids  but actually it was all fine and I really shouldn't of worried so much and  afterwards I was so glad it was out.  I did think stupidly I would be up and about a couple of days later but it did take a good week to feel normal again and walk without my legs crossed lol! Iv still got quiet a few stitches inside but I am totally pain free. 
     

    you got this xx

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    hI Jax,

    When there is a history of cancer in the family, you are just as well to get checked out for the BRCA gene. It is always a worry when we have daughters. Here's hoping that you don't carry the gene. They will check your hormone status after your operation and will be better placed to organise your ongoing treatment once they know the situation.

    I am glad that you have found the information you were given helpful. It can be a bit daunting at first, but it is all very 'doable.'  You will find that you are stronger than you think as you go through this. It's amazing how we find those extra reserves of strength after a cancer diagnosis. I am delighted to hear that your consultant is lovely, as he is the one pperson you'll rely on throughout all this and you really need to have faith in him.

    It sounds as if you have a positive attitude and are ready to fight this which is good. You will find that the more positive you can be about all that is happening, the better you'll cope with it all. I have been through this twice in the past 12 years, so if I can help in any way, just let me know.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

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    Hia lovely lady.

    So sorry that this was your news but you're so rigjt, it's been caught early. The waiting is awful. You've got this and we're all here for you. Xxx

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