Hi, I've just been diagnosed with some sort of cancer in a finger joint, after about six months of inconclusive scans, biopsies and surgery to remove a tumour that was by then about the size of a walnut. They aren't sure what kind of cancer it is yet, but I'll be having the affected finger amputated.
I'm not bothered about that as the finger is useless at this point. It's just a numb stiff thing that gets in the way. It's already cost me my source of income (i was an artist, not anymore) so I'm just focusing on surviving- I can get a new job, if i'm well enough, or go on benefits but I can't get a new life!
What's scarier is not knowing what kind of cancer it is, where it's spread to, or where it's spread from. How do you deal with the waiting when you don't have your test results yet? I keep worrying that it's a secondary tumour that's spread from my lungs or something, which makes me anxious and shaky, and then I panic more because I think it's a symptom... I have a ct scan this week, but they're only doing my chest/abdomen and not everywhere else? Should that be a worry?
Does anyone have experience with cancer in the hand, or know of any resources for learning to write with your non dominant hand?