As the title says talking is the best remedy I myself have been Newley diognosed with Melanoma. And I'm finding it easier to talk to people I don't know then people I do know. Opening up to loved ones can be so hard especially if your going to see them suffer as well.
I will discuss my story and hopefully others can join in to!
So im 31, male, fit and healthy with a small family. I've always had the odd moles around my body which wasn't really of concern I mean almost everyone has moles! Anyway I noticed one on my back was changing slightly (gradule over a year) visited my GP who said it's fine. I actually made afew trips to my GP regarding the mole but I suppose you always put your faith in them.
Around 4 weeks ago I noticed the same mole was now going slightly raised, been impatient and not willing to wait to see a doctor I decided to just pay privately and have the mole removed the same day.
Two weeks later I get called in with a superficial Melanoma stage 2 from the histology report.
I can assure you now until you've been told you have cancer you won't experience the complete shattering emotions you feel.
I cried... a lot. Still do to be honest knowing I've got a potentially life threatening cancer. You think of loved ones family and friends in ways you've never thought of before. And I really do think if I come out of this experience clear this will have changed me as a person. I certainly won't be busting my balls at work 7 days a week, family time is way more important to me.
It's crazy how much the kids can play games with you since I've been stressed I've been convinced I can feel all my lymph nodes enlarged around my body however when the surgeon and doctor had a feel they wasn't concerned at all. I do think the mind is a powerful tool. Anexiety and stress have lead to me eating less which certainly don't do you any good that's for sure. I've spent days in bed on my own sobbing that my life over when I haven't even moved onto stage two of my cancer process yet. I suppose I and others I'm sure always prepare for the worst. I think a big part of it is the waiting game we all have to endure between appointments and results because that relly don't help.
I've got my first hostpital appointment next week with the surgeon who's going to discuss my case and the next procedure so I'm going to keep my case updates on here to share with everyone and hopefully if others want to talk and get things off there chest like I have even if it helps just one person I'm happy.
My histology report was as follows
magliant melanoma
superficial spreading
breslow thickness 1.2mm
Clarks level 3
mitotoc rate 5mm2
Ulceration - no
TILs - no
my surgeon is confident he's removed the primary tumour just from taking the mole out due to the side of the cut he's made so now the next step is to see if it's spread I suppose. However I will keep this post updated for everyone and please as I said share share share im always open to talking to people. And most importantly get them moles checked! Even if your not sure always seek a second and third oppinion!
