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Recall after a routine Mammogram. Cannot do this...

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I have had mental health problems since I was a child mainly extreme anxiety.  I am now 55. I take daily medication, but of course it does not deal with it all.

I always have mammograms and smear tests when called for them. I am now 55. I have never had any problems fortunately.

There is no history of cancer on either both sides of my family. Mental health issues, yes and plenty, but no cancer.

I did not expect the letter I received today. I have to go to hospital in a few days, on Thursday, as I need further investigations.

My anxiety is off the scale.I have taken my daily medication plus Diazepam that I have prescribed, and I still feel like I am going through the roof with anxiety. 

I cannot cope. 

I cannot deal with this. I just know this is it. I am going to have Cancer.

How people with diagnosed Cancer, cope, I will never know, but that must be testament to their strength or personality type.  I am not strong emotionally.

How do people with any form of mental illness, cope?

Sorry for going on like I am, but I am so scared. I feel like this is a bad dream.

My thoughts are with every single person who is dealing with Cancer. I wish you all the very best and hope that you can be free from it eventually. 

 

  • Offline in reply to Fallmare

    I think the tumor marker would be a blood test.

    Not sure if they do them on the quiet.

    I know we all do it but don't believe everything you read on google. Many times I have looked up my symptoms and been convinced cancer is the only answer and it turned out nothing.

    I also find consultants especially have a way of saying thngs, for example, I once had a routine ct scan and was feeling very confident all was fine... he appeared and said, I'm requesting an MRI of your liver, something has shown up.... and off he went, you can imagine what state I was in. I said to the nurse I can't cope with this, waiting for the scan and then waiting for the result... anyway, one day at a time thinking I knew what had been found I went for the result appointment in tears and a wreck. A lovely female consultant came in and said it was a liver cyst, totally nothing, most of us will have them and not even know. Another scary time that turned out ok.

  • Offline in reply to Ineedabreak

    I sent you a friend request

    Hope you don't mind.

    I'm absolutely dreading the phone call

    Living on my nerves.

    So excuse my rudeness but you have been through this once or twice?

    I keep thinking about awful things

    Living on Kalms

     

    You've been so nice explaining things to me. I really appreciate it xx

    I don't know if a gp would of done a tumour marker? 

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