Hi,

I have just joined this forum after being diagnosed with 'invasive breast cancer' 11 days ago following a mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy.  I go back to hospital on Tuesday to find out full details and a treatment plan. 

Like other people on here, a range of emotions abound for me and my partner of 25 years.  My biggest problem is I suffer with a lifelong terror of feeling/being sick and haven't been sick for over 50 years. I am 64 now and was last sick as a young child.

I have always said 'I'd rather die than be sick' and now I fear I may be faced with that choice if part of a treatment plan advised to me involves chemotherapy with it's associated nausea/vomiting side effects.  I understand there are powerful anti-emetics but I couldn't get to that point of daring to find out if they would actually stop any of it!  At the moment I feel so trapped and helpless because I expect the terror I feel will result in me refusing chemotherapy if I needed it and therefore probably limiting my life chances etc.

Is there anyone else on here with a similar fear/phobia?  If so, I would love to hear your decisions/experiences.  I would also appreciate any other replies.  Just sharing on here helps.