About 18 months ago my dad was diagnosed with kidney cancer. They removed one of his kidneys and all his follow up scans were clear and he's been fine.

He had his last scan 3 weeks ago and last week he was contacted to say they've found cancer in his lungs. He's been referred for an appointment next week to discuss next steps.

I'm devasted. I'm so close to my dad and he does so much for me and the family. He's 69 and lost 2 brothers to cancer in their 50s. 

I have a 2 month old baby and it's breaking my heart that he might not see her grow up now. I had images of her growing up with grandparents, going on family holidays and my dad loving being a grandad.

I don't know what I'm looking for here but I just needed somewhere to vent and be around others who understand.