Hello Confusedly,

                           l just begin to understand how devasting this news will have been for you.For most people will feel the same upon hearing a similar diagnosis,but they will have the "comfort" of surgery and/or chemo,but for you due to existing health issues these options are not there..Knowing that the possiblity of a stoma comes without any guarentees just highlights the unenviable position you find yourself in.

                                                                                                                                                          As a recipient of surgery/chemo/radiotherapy to bowel with spread to liver,after a 6 year struggle l can attest to the absolute brutality of the treatment,even when my start point was top fitness and physical ability,so l can understand why you find yourself in this position.All you can hope for is that the tumour is slow growing and gives you the time for you to come to terms with yourself,if that is ever possible and that this covid dies back enough to allow you the chance to do some of things you had always promised yourself you would,

                       Sorry l cannot dress the reality of your situation into the clothes of everything will be alright,just hope that a few treasured things that you hold dear will come to pass for you,

                                                                                                    try not to be too hard on yourself,and l hope you have plenty of support for you to lean upon should you choose,

                                                                                                                        David

Thank you for your frank reply it's strangely reassuring to hear that they wouldn't have just written me off