Hi Titch, 

Come on - you can do this. They are nagging you because they can fix it.

Ask yourself " what is the worst that can happen at your next appointment?" think about it really? With fact, before the brain gets busy with racing thoughts.

NOBODY - likes getting their bit and bobs out, nobody.

As for 'negativity' go for it- are you not human, with human emotions? If you can't sound off on here in private, where can you do it. I did'nt find you negative anyway, just scared out of your wits.

One thing is for sure, that this isn't going to go away- so to be blunt- get it done!
 

My mate had this when she was about 26, she was both horrified , embarrassed and scared, but went , done and dusted and is now 50.

if you are getting an 'knock out' anaesthetic. Great. 
As for your mental health- sure, but that is okay, we all on here have our 'moment' and when it is on full throttle it is extremely unpleasant! Thoughts going around and around and around.......

But come on! You can DO this.

Thank you for replying.
 

I'm absolutely terrified. I didn't want this in the first place so I wish they would just leave me alone to get on with my life. This outcome is exactly why I put off the initial test. I just don't want them to hurt me. I'm not in any pain or discomfort now so how can I consent to being put in harms way and coming out feeling like that? I've never had a period pain so I can't understand the pain im likely to experience. I have no pain threshold and feel like I can't cope with even a splinter.  The mental damage this whole thing is doing feels like it outweighs anything physical. 
 

I'm at a loss and still don't know what to do. 

Hi its a worrying time for you .... no body wants to hear bad news but!!! If there is a problem the earlier its detected the better the outcome is I for example wasnt due a mammogram until June 2021 but for some reason they called me in this February I was found to have a small tumour which was removed and I'm now cancer free The earlier the better Think about it I'm SO lucky mine was found early xxxxx

C'mon Titch. You can do this!
Tell me in honesty what you think your alternatives are? That is not being 'cruel' , but practical. Ignoring it would not make it go away 
Being petrified is par for the course, no body want to be poked and prodded and absolutely dreads 'bad' news.

As for pain....... yep for sure, no fun, but if you are having a general anaesthetic then no pain.

As for period pain! Ah yes,  suffered for years, but a few paracetamol etc, job done. Annoying rather than debilitating . You said you've had broken bones- that is very very painful.

You asked why would you consent to suffer pain....again ask yourself what are your alerternatives. I have consented to all manner of surgical procedures that involve short term 'discomfort', but it was have it done or suffer worse pain down the road- I have to be honest with you, all the 'procedures I have ever had ( including open abdominal under a spinal) pain control was amazingly good and tbh I've had worse toothache. Even the initial cannula was no worse than a rose bush scratch! The thought is almost always worse than the reality.

So, come on  get your 'brave' face on get it over with.... imagine how good you will feel mentally achieving something you felt you could never do.

i almost feel I want to 'cheer' you on, you know like they do at the race finishing line x

Your response made me cry - but in a god way. Thank you for being honest and for your encouragement. 
 

I am going to do my best and try but I can't make any promises. I don't have a lot of fight in me to see this through but I'm going to keep hold of the small bit left.
 

Will let you know the outcome either way. I will just be grateful for some relief from this nightmare. X

YES Titch you DO have plenty of kick ar*e fight in you!
and I am waving flags for you girl.

x

ps - you said you'd a coil!!! Now that was one of the most painful things I have ever shoved in. Wow, coming out was no fun either (: if you can do that ,you most surely can do this x

Hello. Thought I would just give a little update and let you know that my nightmare is finally over and I ended up going through with the procedure on Monday. If it wasn't for my husband being there to push me forward there was no way I was doing it and I was ready to leave as soon as I realised that I'd been lied to by all the consultants / nurses. He literally had to drag me through the hospital down to the room where I had the anaesthetic but before long I was awake again and feeling like I'd made a huge mistake. To be honest I still feel that way and wouldn't make recommendations to anyone else to go through it unless you absolutely have to. It's not worth the pain and discomfort but the relief is nice! I have taken myself off the smear list and it is a huge comfort knowing that I never have to put myself or my family through this again. Thank you to everyone who was kind and was cheering in my corner. X

Well done for seeing it through. I have had a LLETZ and although not a procedure one would have lightly, let's remember WHY women have smears and how terrible cervical cancer would be.

Personally I would rather lose a short period of time to pain, discomfort, indignity rather than losing my life to a disease when it could have been treatable. 

I now have early breast cancer and am having a mastectomy. Again .... I'd rather lose a breast ... risking the pain and indignity that might bring,  than leave my family, son and rewarding career prematurely.  

You obviously have every right to decline or permit surgery and treatment to your own body as you see fit. But perhaps imagine if your husband had a treatable early cancer but refused to have it removed. He would likely be choosing a very sad path indeed ......

That smear and the LLETZ that followed may well have saved you from far worse.  

Hi

All I have to say is : YOU DID IT. Yaaaay. I know this sounds a bit wierd as we don't know each other, but I am really proud of you.

How are you feeling now mentally? After you faced your fears head on? Sure it was tough, but I am going to say it again YOU DID IT YAAAY!!!! flags are out as promised - well xmas light anyway

xx