Hi everyone

I was diagnosed with lobular breast cancer and initially told it was stage 1.  There was another area of calcification which also turned out to be cancerous so I think the stage probably changed although I was too frightened to ask.  I had a mastectomy with reconstruction.  The pathology report 2 weeks later confirmed my lymph nodes were clear and everything found was grade 1.  It was also discovered that there was only one area of cancer, it was quite large 6 cms but mostly was precancerous LCIS.  

I was told by my surgeon and also the breast care nurse that I would need radiotherapy and also tamoxifen for 10 years.  I also had to speak to an oncologist to help plan my treatment.

The oncologist went on to tell me that my survival rate for the next 5 years was 88%, at least I think he was talking survival, it may have been recurrance?  I’m not sure as it’s all so much to take in.  Are these good odds?  Should I be pleased about this?  I honestly don’t know what to think anymore. He also said this percentage could go up to 90 if I opted for ovarian injections to stop oestrogen being produced.  I decided against this as I am 53 and feel that a natural menopause can’t be far away now.

I’m just in a bit of a spin and looking for any advice or thoughts on all of this.  I’m just so scared and overwhelmed with everything and I can’t let my family see how frightened I am. 

I was too scared to ask what the 10 year survival would be, and I don’t think I’m up to looking it up myself.

Trying to be positive but any help greatly appreciated! Xx