Hi, im

not sure where to begin, my mum received the news in may that she has pancreatic cancer unfortunately it has spread to other near by sites, the devistation hit when we found out that our mum is terminal. She is now receiving palative chemotherapy. She's been receiving chemo for two month now and is having a first scan next week. My mum is only 49 and has broken me and my family. I'm writing here because I feel like I don't have a outlet, mum doesn't like to talk about it, nor does she like me and my step dad to discuss it either. My mum does not want to know her prognosis and it's making things so difficult. I don't know if my mums going to have more time or not as days are hard with the side effects of the chemotherapy. Mums pain is under control much better and we are trying to make the most of her rest weeks, due to COVID 19 It's making it even harder. We all had a week away on her first rest week which was brilliant and I'm trying too book again but mum keeps saying we can't keep going away because I think she's thinks she's going to be able to live with this for many years. The fact I can't make this go away is the hardest part. My beautiful mum is miles apart from how she was 5 month ago. 
 
thanks in advance