Hi there ..

Bless ya .. have you ever been on a huge rollercoaster... spun round , shot up .. shot back down .. even upside down to boot ... then you get off that ride, and it feels really weird for a while .. legs a tad like jelly, bit wobbly ... till you walk a while and slowly get your balance and legs back ..

Well the journey you've been on is the same scary emotional rollercoaster... you jumped on, put your life in the oncology teams hands ... and had no control ... and the future was one big question mark ... 

So be kind to your self, give yourself time to adjust .. to feel all those feelings .. to know you got control back .. baby steps ... just take baby steps... 

But please know, I think we change after a cancer diagnoses... can be a good change too .. look at things with new eyes .. take every day as a bonus ... take time to look around you .. try to be round nice calm people .. move away from angry grumpy people ... take your new "normal" and run with it .. learn to laugh again .. take nothing for granted ... so high 5 to you ... you've climbed a mountain and reached the top .. big vertual hug.... Chrissie x

100%, like it is some hideous nightmare where my family and friends are saying put it all behind you etc etc - I feel very lucky but very weird about it all and now I am back to work and back to 'normal' as if it's not real even though it very much as and is 

I have just seen the response from the lovley lady Chrissie and I'll be taking that advice for sure xx

Great news that you're clear.    I know what you mean about the conveyer belt, its hard to explain.    I had disappointing news from my check up in May following my surgery in January.    Its still uncertain what the problem is, one thing now is feeling really tired which I mentioned to my consultant just last week. He says its common for cancer patients to feel like this, maybe 3 or 4 months after getting the all clear, I suppose you can't be on a high forever.        

Hope you're otherwise doing well.     Colin. 

I was wondering if anyone else felt like this. 

Thank you Chriss that's good advice. You clearly understand exactly! I really like the idea that we see things differently after all this and I completely agree. I think there are definitely positives to be taken out of such a horrible situation.

Thanks so much again! Xxx

Hi 123Nelly, yeah, you're kind of just expected to celebrate and then carry on as normal! 

Like you say, it definitely happened but it feels as if it didn't and it was all just a dream. 

Yes I totally agree with Chrissie's advice too: we need to just be kind to ourselves and take some positives away from it if we can. 

Take care, thank you xxx

Hi Colin thanks so much for your reply. The whole thing is such a strange business it really is. You feel like you're passed from pillar to post and never really register what's going on! 

I'm really sorry to hear you didn't get the best news. I hope they find out what the problem is soon and can treat it ASAP.

Yes the tiredness is terrible! I don't have much energy at all, and all I want to do is rest. It sort of reminds you of what your body's been through.

Really hope you feel better soon, take care. Lucy