All I can say is try and think positively. Easy to say I know . I'm currently waiting for my biopsy results taken 10 days ago and I felt the same way. 

After finding lumps on my penis I was shocked and thought 'No can't be not me'

After a MRI and a CT scan they found a mass in my pelvis area. Obviously I was devastated by this latest development. 

What I did was contact my family who immediately offered help. My close friends offered too. I have taken strength from all the comments from them. Ring anytime if you need to talk was one thing which I've found very encouraging. 

Don't hide the fact that you're frightened, people understand. Talk about your feelings and don't be frightened. You'll be surprised at their reactions. I have learned that friends I've known for over 40 years have had the  same feelings as you're going through. But by talking to their families and friends it has helped immensely. 

You may think I'm talking rubbish but talking to others has certainly helped me

Hope you can gain encouragement from this and all turns out okay for you . Be brave !

Thank you Chris for your supportive message. 

I have found friends and family helpful, I've also found my church has helped also. 

I found lump in my penis, GP believes it to be trauma. I've also had a lymph become hard and painless. Didn't go after antibiotics so had emergency ENT appointment where they found a mass in my throat and fluid filled lymph. Started having pain in armpits and chest since then. 

I'm still hoping for the best and will pray for you to have a good result. 

I'm a paramedic by trade so I know that the treatments are a thousand times better than 10 years ago so even if it turns out bad there's more chance than ever of beating it. 

Good to connect with someone whose having simular anxiety and worses. 

Good luck buddy

Hi Wez - my ultrasound and biopsy on the lymph nodes in my neck is on Friday. I've never known time to pass so slowly! Trying to keep myself busy.

Well I've had the biopsy, tonsillectomy and another needle biopsy. Based on the CT and consultants thoughts are that I have cancer. 2 weeks before I know for sure. 

This is the worst feeling I've ever ever had. My mental health is taking a pounding. I just think I'm going to die. I know there's treatments out there but I've had no luck with anything so far and my prays are going unanswered.

How do I face up to dying? 

Sorry.. 

Hi Wez

So sorry you find yourself in this situation, its awfully frightening isnt it (my biopsy results are due monday)

I have been really struggling to keep positive and not think the worst, but the word cancer to me drums up horrid feelings. I spoke to my GP which really helped, had a good cry and got things off my chest. He prescribed me some beta blockers which have been great to ease the panic I was feeling. I have also found meditation very helpful in keeping my mind centred on the here and now instead of catastrophising. 

Best things I think are keep focused on facts not fantasy and keep talking, open up, cry, let it all out.

Big hugs

P.s love your name...my little dog is called Wez.

I've just had my friend, Reverend Whitmore who has been through prostate cancer. He has easied it a little. It just catches me out sometimes and then I think it's the end and I'm counting my days.

I know as a paramedic that it's not the same as it was 20 years. The treatments and therapies are so advanced now that more people survive than pass with this awful disease. 

I pray that you have a good result and you come out of it feeling healed and love for life. 

You must have good taste calling your dog Wez. 

Best of luck and thank you for your reply