Liz72

Hi,im so sorry to read you have grade 3 breast cancer its a very scary time ,and yes in answer to all your questions, its normal to feel emotional and feel all of these feelings. 

I was recently diognosed with breast cancer on May 20th 2020,ive had a lumpectomy and all my lymph nodes removed from under my right arm. 

I was so scared,i didnt want to look at my breast ,but my surgeon has done an amazing job.

Where ive had my lympth nodes removed, its sore and painful, and i did het a seroma ( a build up of fluids ) which i had drained last wed. 

Its not half as bad as i imagined it would be.

I was originally told it would be radiotherapy and letrazole, but becsuse my tumour was 2cm not 1cm as they first thought  and 3 of my lymph nodes contained cancer cells not 2 as they first thought, im being offerd chemotherapy. I am in a panic about that, and dont know what to do. I have my oncologist calling me tomorrow morning to discuss the treatments .

Ill be sure to ask loads of questions. 

I find writing my thoughts and feelings down helps me a lot,and ive writren a couple of poems ,which are straight from my heart  they contain my emotions and deepest thought's. 

I will.probably write a few more on here.

I hope they resonate and make people realise that  these feelings and thoughts thry may be having are normal. 

Anyway enough about me im.sending you lots of love and im.here if you need someone to tslk to.  Xxx

Hi

I am so sorry to hear you are feeling so scared and im sure very anxious but I understand the waiting is the worst.

Ive recently been diagnosed with stage 2 lobular breast cancer, which is a wopping 10cm so waiting on a mastectomy on 23rd July followed by radiotherapy.  Ive had a roller coaster of a ride waiting on 2 biopsy results, MRI, Oncotype result so completely understand your feelings.  I have to say, after 4 weeks of waiting for my treatment to start I can honestly say I feel so blessed to have a wonderful NHS team and I know they are only a phone call away.  The recent COVID pandemic hasnt helped but I know Im in safe hands to be cancer free.  Its amazing how far things have come along and you will be cancer free in no time at all. 

I hope you have good support from family and friends but you know you always have an extended family on here.  We all understand!

I wish you all the best and would love to hear how your treatment goes .

xx

Jassoscared

And there was me thinking am I the only one !! You have restored my faith, I have never had an illness, or op or been in hospital and when reading back in my post I thought get a grip Liz, I will be thinking of you because at my own personal time of need I feel I need you all and I'm here for you thank you for your enlightening for your feelings please keep in touch I'm here for you all as we all are here you have taken the selfish feelings I thought I only had, thinking of you xx

YV4820

thank you so much for a reply, I feel like no one understands I can't take phone calls or all that sorry to hear and am there for you because they don't know. What is really hard is that I'm in the same boat and I think right now I feel the only one BUT IM Not am I? Covid has weakened me and us all but has not taken away the right to feel loved if that makes sense I will be thinking of you and I'm so glad to be thinking of you all ( if that makes sense ) 

Liz72 

Honestly your feelings are not selfish at all ,they are realy not. No one qhite understands this untill it hapoens to them,we have all probably known someone whos had cancer and weve  all thought , oh no thats awful,but you never fully understand the mental scars it also brings unless you go through it yourself, or a realy close family member or friend is going through it, and your sharing that jourmey with them, seeing  and feeling all the highs and lows this dreadfull diesese can bring  is tough to deal with. But what ever we have to go through ,it helps to talk about it all.

Thankyou for your reply,i appreciate your lovely kind words,and im  here for you to xxxx