Mum

Hello there,

My Mum has just been diagnosed with stage 1V SCLC that has spread to her lymph nodes at the back of her stomach and to her liver. The oncologist says she has 4-6 months to live without chemotherapy and 6-9 months with it. 
I was able to chat to the oncologist privately and get the prognosis without Mum hearing. Mum knows it's not curable but is going to start treatment on Friday. I don't think it helps knowing you have a death sentence.... It's like being on death row. 
I lost my Grandma to Lymphoma last August, my Dad to Pancreatic Cancer in 2008 and almost lost my husband to throat cancer in 2015. 
When the oncologist told my Dad he had 6 months to live he lost the will to live and died 6 weeks later. 
Mum and I never told Grandma her cancer was terminal and she lived life as best she could, believing she would get better......Happy, content, watching tv and interacting with us right up until 3 days before she sadly died. 
I can't believe I'm on one of these forums again... My sadness is overwhelming me and trying to keep a brave face all the time is so difficult. 
It does help being able to write things down here and express myself and it's heart wrenching reading everyone's sad stories...

 

  • Hi Spongefest 

    Sorry you find yourself here. You've had so much going on with many family members affected by cancer. It's so unfair. 

    I have been where you are because my Mum was diagnosed with NSCLC. Many years ago (when sadly the treatments weren't as amazing as they are now). 

    Putting on a brave face can make things feel a bit worse. It's a hell of a lot of pressure to put on yourself. You don't need to put on a brave face...you're allowed to be upset and also show it! If you decide not to put on a brave face, it may also help others around you to support you better. 

    I think there's a lot to be said about mind over matter too, as evidenced by your Grandma xxx I know it doesn't suit everyone (some people demand the facts and they're well entitled to it of course) xxx please come back any time you need xxx

  • My heart goes out to you at this time. It does help to write things down in fairness I have read more positive stories than sad ones fortunately otherwise I don't think I would use this site. Keep talking sharing whatever you need to do to get through this difficult time. My advice would be to let your mum live her best life things she wanted to do places to visit if possible and skis the dreaded lockdown. 
    Stay strong xx