Hello lovely and brave lady,

Another newbie.... you're in a similar space to me I'm guessing. Im

not sure if my treatment plan yet. I wish I know so I could get out of this scary phase of first diagnosis.
And your son too. My goodness. I am sending you both my positive love and energy. Horrid. But as you say, you're not alone. 

keep talking and sharing. I'm learning that's very helpful as the minutes pass of each day. I'm scared too and cry often.

i want someone to say they've got it wrong. I'm 46 with 3 teenagers and a full life. I've not time for this ***!

here too xx 

Sunscared.

Hi and thankyou for your reply. 

I'm sorry to that you and your family are going through it .its good to know your mum survived and got through it and is able to help .Hope you have a good wekend if you can as well, trying hard to stay positive.im here if you ever feel down and feel  the need to talk.

Stay strong  my ,lovely. 

Mrs Boo.

It is good to talk to people who understand our  worries and fears, not  that i would wish this awful diesese on anyone. 

I too do cry lots of tears like you because of not knowing what the treatment plan entsils. I've been told a lumpectomy and lymph nodes removed from under my arm.That in itself is scary. And its the  not knowing what the bone  scan and ct scan results are that ive had in the last 2 days , and im.dreading what will be needed to treat it.

Sending you much love and positive vibes too.

If you ever feel low and need to pent out your feelings, im.here 

Try to enjoy the weekend big hugs sent your way. Xx

Hi  and thank you for the offer to talk. 

Some days I don't have much online access - shared system. 

Doing much better today. Have so much more energy than I've had in a long while... 

I found it difficult to do things until my stitches healed which seemed to take forever (a good month).

Generally with "melanomas" you get a biopsy and later when the lesion is confirmed as malignant they do a wide local excision (WLE) but one of my most recent scars is too big to have been an excision biopsy. (They did do a biopsy elsewhere on the same day and it healed a lot faster.) Having surgery in two different places also made recovery longer. 

Surprisingly, I am now feeling pleased that I didn't get results last week as I have a weekend feeling better than I've done in a long while and I escaped a further surgery that could have come  last week... Like a switch being flicked and the energy has come back on!

You've got a tough time ahead I know. Stay strong and once again thanks for the offer to talk! x

I too feel a little better. Mantra, 'this has not spread'. I've been for a run and I've washed windows. Living the life

So I thought I would share some of my energy and thoughts with  you all and let you know I'm grateful for your time and words. 
I have named my anxiety 'cancer chatter'. So when I feel a niggle, a pain, a 'what if', a pang of anxiety ... I'm trying to tell myself it's the cancer chatter. I look for the filing cabinet in my head labelled 'worry' and I visualise shoving it in that and slamming the bloody cabinet shut.

I'm a counsellor so used to supporting others through pain, loss and trauma. I'm turning it on itself now and using the techniques I've used on others on myself. People talk of journeys..... mine has become internal now. It's just me and the tumour. But to know there are others who understand this journey is the most amazing feeling..... 

love and happy sunny thoughts to all of you x and those who aren't feeling it today you get extra xxx 

Thank you for this lovely cheering post!

I too have had a good day.

I like your imagery and can see how it works for you. Personally, I like to throw worries away so I visualise myself chucking them into the air like throwing a ball or pebbles on the shore. That way the worries aren't left inside me. 

love and sunny thoughts back to everyone tooxx

Morning all,

I am intending to have another good day. I am reminding myself of all the positives I have in life and creating feelings of gratitude around that. Easier said than done but it's a task and I'll give it my best shot!

sending everyone on here my love and bestest wishes that you all too find your peace, or joy, or worry free moment and hold on to it x x x x 

Good morning all too,

Yes, am really hoping for another good day.

Had a much better sleep last night. Though still wasted a good half hour wondering what my response is going to be if I'm called in at short notice for further surgery... 

Once I'd got my plan together, I managed to let my worries go and am feeling more energetic again.

Hope you have another good day too! 

Lots of hugsxx

Evening,

Hope you had a good day. I finally got my results - high grade dysplasia but good margins and no need for further surgery.

Might have to have a few other lesions taken out (routine not urgent).

Wishing you well for all your treatments. And thank you for all the support. It helped! Really hope everything works out for you.

Lots of positivity and hugsxx