Hi Misszozo,

I am so sorry to read about your Dad.  My Dad was given his diagnosis yesterday and was told that he had aggressive liver cancer.  The consultant gave him a few months. He has been offered treatment but was told that it would only extend his life by a couple of months.  He doesn't want to be unwell for teh time he has left so has decided to have pallative care. He is 80 but fit, had two knee replacements in the last year because he was still going strong.  I thought he was going to be with us for a good few years yet as his Mum was 93 when she died.  I just thought he was like her.

I am utterly devasted by this.  I haven't been able to give him a hug as I am terrified of giving him this virus and we lose him much sooner.  I live alone with my young daughter, who my Dad is a Father figure to as her own Father isn't around.  She really is his little buddy.  He adores her and she adores him.

I cry a lot, I cry for his pain, I cry when I see him cry, I cry when I think about the time when I will have to break my daughter's heart when I tell her, I cry when I worry that I won't say or do the things I want to before he leaves us, I cry beacuse I can't comfort my Dad by holding his hand or giving him a hug, I cry typing this.

I want to take photos and videos of him with my daughter so she will always remember him but I don't want to start sticking a camera in his face.  I just sound crass and awful now don't I.

I just wanted to say that this virus infects everything in life. Not being able to hold someone they need comfort is the hardest.  We will find a way though I am sure.