Hi all
2 days ago after months of symptoms with my vision in one eye and nose bleeds I was finally diagnosed with a rare cancer called parasinal cancer which sadly has spread too much to be operable imcluding to the brain . I am due to have chemo starting tommorow to reduce the symptoms
at only 49 years old and in prior good health the shock of this diagnosis i am finding totally incomprehensible and impossible to deal with. All my wife and I have done is cry and cry the last 2 days and I can't fathom how anyone can possibly come to terms with this. I am a constant ball of anxiety which isn't helped by the corona virus meaning I am trapped indoors
I just don't feel I can cope. I want to have hope something can be done but can't see past the worst case scenario as it is not curable
3 months ago I had a great life with my wife of 4 years and we had plans for the future. Now everything feels horrific and getting out of bed in the morning seems pointless. I am lost and scared and just feel unable to handle this at all