Hi I was diagnosed with breast cancer 2 weeks ago .....
I have Invasive Ductal Carcinoma which has spread outside of the ductal area and I'll find out of it's gone anywhere else after my surgery and node removal.
I'm having surgery on 14th....followed by radiotherapy, possible chemo and on medication.
My girls are 26 and 9yrs old. Eldest knows and although in bits is coping well ATM.
Little lady has no idea it's cancer and although she has an incling something isn't right I am struggling with my decision of whether I should tell her I have cancer and if not what do I tell her I'm going into hospital for?
I've put on a brave face since finding out and as she's home educated she's always around me so I don't feel like I've had time or space to process anything myself let alone prepare to tell her.....
I have nobody to talk to as I'm the matriarch of our family including my siblings and their families so I keep everyone else together.... but I am starting to feel very flat and don't know where or how to deal with it all.
I have MS and I'm a very strong and positive person, not one to sit and mope around but I really feel like the walls are closing in on me and I need to talk about it all ...
I have got numbers for the cancer care nurses and they are fab but I feel like I can't Kean on them for emotional support. I had a meeting with McMillan nurses but it was cancelled due to CV and although offered a number of a volunteer I can't ring with little lady being around me.....
God I'm waffling now....
How do I deal with everything xx
