Petrified - diagnosed with bowel cancer

I have been diagnosed with bowel cancer (still to be staged but advanced) I have a tumour at the right side next to where my appendix should be. Unfortunately they have also found one lesion in my liver and the node "involved" is attached to my small bowel.

I have purposely stayed off Google, and done nothing research wise cos I'm a panic merchant at the best of times. Long story short I'm having a 'open right hemi resection' on Wednesday where they'll also attempt to remove the node and then chemo to blast the lesion j my liver . I did the stupid thing of looking up the procedure which lead to rabbit hole of other links about survival rates etc. 
 

Up until today I've been very positive about everything but now I'm terrified as it doesn't seem survivable from what I've read. Can someone please tell me it is?

  • I'm so sorry for my delay in replying. I'm so very sorry you're also in this position. Has anything been done recently? 
     

    Every moment of every day is presently taken up with manic phone calls, reasearch and writing emails, trying to find a hospital that is prepared to conduct the colonoscopy cancer screening procedure on my mother. No one will do it bcos she's aged over 70. I'm sickened. All the private hospitals have been seconded by the nhs - seemingly to treat non virus affected nhs patients - so we can't even pay to help ourselves. Even those private hospitals which were meant to treat non virus nhs patients won't treat anyone over 70 "bcos they're vulnerable to being infected"....even though there's no one with the virus there! 
     

    im also utterly exhausted, as are you. I can't believe the nhs has washed their hands of anyone over 70. It's maddening. How dare they? They've paid into the nhs their entire lives but seemingly they're not worthy of cancer screening or treatment anymore bcos they're prioritising others. I've made so many official complaints, all futile. No one is addressing the point about the nhs using the private hospitals for non virus patients and thus it being relatively safe to treat over 70's for urgent cancer procedures there

    I'm not sure how to contact you privately on here, but please do make contact with me if you know how. It sounds like we are in the same position in many regards.

     

    xxxx