Hi all,

hope you are all keeping well. So many brave people on this site. I've recently been told that I have "malignant activity" in my shoulder with unknown primary. GP was a little evasive but very supportive. I've suffered with severe and constant shoulder, neck and breast pain and had chest X-ray (clear bizarrely), Mri on neck and spine (clear) and eventually MRI on shoulder that showed suspicious activity. Referred to oncologist. GP seemed shocked to be honest and a little shaken herself which was unusual. Haven't told my partner or mother as both have fragile mental health. Feeling lonely and also in so much pain that life doesn't seem worth living any more regardless. Feel like a Burden. Scared and overwhelmed though. How is everyone else coping! Any pain management strategies? So far mine has been to drink wine every evening (never been a drinker as parents and grandparents were alcoholics) but it's the only pain relief I get. Tramadol not helping one bit. Haven't slept much. Maybe 3-4 hours per night. Still working against all odds.  Boss making comments about my performance which is worrying me as I've always had impeccable work record. Just hope there's people here to help me cope. Thank you x