Hi Sue. I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis and that you're scared right now. My wife was diagnosed with ovarian cancer 20 months ago, and since then, she's faced one demon after another... things that she would never have thought herself capable of. Have faith in yourself; you can win this battle, no matter how frightening the challenges that possibly await might be, and no matter how insurmountable they might seem. You can do it. Best wishes for the future, Mark X