Hi there ..

I know just what it's like, as a mum of two lads ... I say lads .. they are 30 odd and 40 odd .. but as you say .. they will always be my babies .. 

When my youngest was 14 he developed diabetes ... which was so different years ago .. and was informed of hypos that could kill him ... going blind, amputations ,  etc .. and like you, cryed my heart out .. I used to sit outside his room, so I could hear him breathing .. untill one day, he saw me crying again ... and said to me, I can handle this mum, but I can't handle you crying all the time ..

Well I pulled up my mummy pants .. went on the comp, learned everything I could about keeping him safe .. even though I nearly lost him a couple of times with hypos ... but you see we have to go back to when they were babies .. we fed , changed them, held their hands and taught them to walk .. and in the end they walked on their own ... 

Well we never truly let go do we .. but I found in being positive, and holding his hand, but not too tightly.. you will both get through .. of coarse he had a few tears ... your his mummy .. and we all look to our mum's.. but yes have tears... let it all out .. but when you talk to him, teach him to walk again .. 

Cancer has come a long way ... there's more treatments now then ever before .. so you can give our nurses a call .. or McMillan .. I did when I got my cancer .. and my son then held my hand , till I could walk again .. and yes he's still here .. and I'm so glad I found out things, instead of just panicking .. that's what us mum's do .. but please don't Google it .. put it in this search engine.. or find out from mcmillan,  they are there for you too ... let us know how you go .. sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie xx